a lazy perfectionist???

there's an idling quality in the air today. or perhaps it is just me who's being lazy and not wanting to do shit. other than a couple of emails i didn't really do much today. well, only half the day is gone so i still have time. think i'm watching BJ2 again tonight...

i know i have a lot of shit to do, but i seem to be quite lost for no reason. i eagerly want to start anew and i know financial wise it's also an imminent matter. so why can't i get my shit together and get something done?

spend like an hour picking different backgrounds and themes for my blog. i only keep picking from the templates but none of them satisfy me a 100% or even close. it's either the layout or the font or the colour, etc, something's never quite right. i know i can always edit it using the code, but i'm too lazy. so i'm just sitting here complaining about nothing, about something i could really get done but just too lazy to...

i'm sitting here complaining about being lazy and why i havent gotten things done. ok this is really a new low. maybe i should blame it on all the sake i had last night. it must have killed a couple billion more of my brain cells and that's why i'm a bit slow today.

actually, i know very well why i've been so lazy. without sounding like a whiner, i really feel it's very tough to start something all over again and to bring it to the level right before everything crashed with such short time. i feel very helpless...