Heh... so happy tonight to hear from Stella all the way in Krakow, Poland. She's been gone for about 2 weeks now and thanks to cheap Internet access in Poland (I think it's Poland since she's using Polish money...) I get to chat with her on MSN tonight. Super duper happy!!! So glad to hear from her since I've been missing her terribly. Friends... something you take for granted when they are there all the time... Anyway, so she's a little tired but excited with her trip so far and I think she's already planning on her next trip there!!! Haha!!! I really hope she'll keep having fun and bring all those back to us when we finally meet again in June!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!
I had my first Francaise lecon tonight and it was kinda fun. Well, nothing more than learning how to count from 1-10 and discovering that the French are both lazy in counting numbers and probably genius in mathematics because of that. My classmates seems nice too so far and I'm looking forward to using my tongue and throat more... speaking the language of cause coz I think the action part I'm aready quite good at... heh... :P (I should be blushing while saying this right? Or perhaps should not even mention it here at all? haha)
Finally my pain has subsided quite a lot today and I'm hoping this won't repeat itself the next time around. Gonna try take better care of myself so I don't have to lie in bed crying of pain. It's gonna be a hectic month ahead with my moving into my own place in 2 weeks' time!!! YES!!! I'm moving to live by myself! It's gonna be my little home office! Still can't believe how quickly this happened! Gonna keep working very hard so I can go back to Oz land more! Very thrilled! :D
Will also join a gym soon to do some exercise... missing my own gym now that I have to go pay to use one but I'm sure it's worth it!
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
The agony of being a woman...
I know, at the risk of sounding like a whinny, inappreciative bitch (a.k.a. Carrie Bradshaw) which my sister already thinks that I've become, I still have to whine this one last bit (for now anyway).
Suffering from the worse ever monthly cycle pain of my life, I realise for the first time that maybe there really are a lot of things wrong with my body and they just might not go away quietly or pretend they don't exist. After 3 days of pain, I finally found a Chinese herbal doctor who actually came up with the right formular to ease the pain for a few good hours. Going back to see him again tomorrow but for now, the pain is back again. I am resisting the temptaion to drug myself crazy with painkillers as it really doesn't cure anything, but it had better go away soon as it's really dragging me down a lot. I really don't remember when was the last time I was in so much pain that I cried all night. It really drains my energy and make me realise how crappy I am :(
On the other hand, I'm am extremely grateful that I have a great mother and a super lovely sister who helped massaged me to help ease my pain. My sister even took the couch after I moved back in to the room due to the extreme pain :) So from now on, I really hope I will do better at taking care of my body and stuff. I really don't want this to happen again in another 4 weeks. It's tormenting.
Suffering from the worse ever monthly cycle pain of my life, I realise for the first time that maybe there really are a lot of things wrong with my body and they just might not go away quietly or pretend they don't exist. After 3 days of pain, I finally found a Chinese herbal doctor who actually came up with the right formular to ease the pain for a few good hours. Going back to see him again tomorrow but for now, the pain is back again. I am resisting the temptaion to drug myself crazy with painkillers as it really doesn't cure anything, but it had better go away soon as it's really dragging me down a lot. I really don't remember when was the last time I was in so much pain that I cried all night. It really drains my energy and make me realise how crappy I am :(
On the other hand, I'm am extremely grateful that I have a great mother and a super lovely sister who helped massaged me to help ease my pain. My sister even took the couch after I moved back in to the room due to the extreme pain :) So from now on, I really hope I will do better at taking care of my body and stuff. I really don't want this to happen again in another 4 weeks. It's tormenting.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Comp 123 revisited...
Thanks to the link from Jackson's page, I finally know how to put links in my sidebar. I have now linked Stella and Cel's blog to mine and I'm very happy. Anyone else wanna be on my link? :)
On a more serious note. Stupid Windows XP always getting me in trouble!!! Lately it seems that whatever I've done, I have now been forbidden to change certain programs, e.g. upgrade, uninstall, change, etc. Not all, but just a few. It keeps saying that I do not have the permission level and I should talk to the system administrator. The thing is, my account is already the administrator. Also this has never happened before. I know that during my attempt to get rid of some virus and spyware from my computer I might have changed some settings, but I really can't remember what I did that might have upset the system. If anyone out there can help me, I'd really really appreciate! THANKS!!!
On a more serious note. Stupid Windows XP always getting me in trouble!!! Lately it seems that whatever I've done, I have now been forbidden to change certain programs, e.g. upgrade, uninstall, change, etc. Not all, but just a few. It keeps saying that I do not have the permission level and I should talk to the system administrator. The thing is, my account is already the administrator. Also this has never happened before. I know that during my attempt to get rid of some virus and spyware from my computer I might have changed some settings, but I really can't remember what I did that might have upset the system. If anyone out there can help me, I'd really really appreciate! THANKS!!!
These short days that are long...
Without so much as blinking my eyes, it has been a bit more than 2 months since I came back from Sydney. I also discovered that it's increasingly difficult to put a perspective on the length of the duration which I've been here. It definitely has been a significant amount of time given that I'm starting to get a little edgy like someone trying kick an addiction cold turkey. Already self-exiled myself to sleeping on the couch (which I think won't last much longer as the nights are getting hotter and hotter and the air-con sounds sweeter and sweeter), I really am not sure what's next. There's no telling when and what is happening to me on any given day.
These days that are getting me more and more confused. Days that feel so long with so much to do but when I look back, there's really not much that I can remember, something that happens when you feel that the days are really short. Like I'm blacking out everyday. It's a surreal feeling with a lot of reality. Feels like I live a conscious life while being unconscious, or the other way around.
Most days I can brush these feelings off with jokes and light stuff or work, some days I just implode. I'm also taking weekends off. It has been almost 3 weekends that I find myself naturally NOT working on the weekends. Something that hasn't happened since I came back last September. I think my mind and body is finally taking charge over my stubbornness in certain area.
I suspect that the major reason of my recent weird behaviour other than I'm been without the Sydney oxygen for 2 months is that because things are really moving very very fast around me. I'm trying my best to keep my head above water. The best I've achieved so far is to have it right at my head and if I stop clearing it, it will soon be above again. Maybe that's why I just naturally stopped working so much on the weekends because I wanna catch a breath at any cost.
I know I can do it, it's mostly just temporary. I'm confident I'll come out high and dry in the end. However, like everyone in the midst of it, we all whine and bitch about it, making a big deal out of it when it's really just peas. For the moment, I find myself clinging to old ways more when I really should be moving forward. To have bigger, greater, grander vision. To stand taller, higher, stronger. To do better, and be better. This, is just a bottleneck now.
Alright, enough of my whining and bitching about nothing. Now that it's off my chest a bit, it'll get me going for another week or so. For now I'm happy. For now I'm grateful to all the people around me and I'm thankful of all the help I get. I'm doing something I like, making money out of it, I love my family and I'm happy :D))
On another note, it has been a bit more than a week since Stella left for Europe. I got an email from her last night and I'm over the moon happy to hear from her. How I miss her and her mad mad sanity. Maybe that's why I'm growing increasingly insane...(yes blame it on those traveling in Europe is always the best idea hehe :P)
Went and did some shopping few days ago. Went again yesterday with my sister who ended up spending mad at Mexx. She wore the "Celina" necklace I gave her as her 21st present for the first time. She looked great with it and I suspect part of the reason why she bought so many outfits is due to the necklace. Everything seems to look better with it on :)
My father, who has been the hot and controversial topic around the house lately, has finally agreed to come back and work in the south from June on. I honestly hope he keeps his promise this time. Toleration can only be extended so much. Certain memories and knowledge can only be suppressed for so long.
Oh, been sick for like the hundred millionth time this week. Coughing bad and all. Fever ran for 4 days last weekend. It is really gonna take a while for my body to be in tune with this place. Or is the sign of my body rejecting this place telling me something? Wow, ok, I better stop before I sound more like Carrie Bradshaw... Which will be SCARY!!!
Cel at work has so far seen one local TV actor, Jacky Chan, and Zhang Ai Jia. Quite exciting. I'm making it mandatory for her to bring her camera to work from now on... heh... :)
These days that are getting me more and more confused. Days that feel so long with so much to do but when I look back, there's really not much that I can remember, something that happens when you feel that the days are really short. Like I'm blacking out everyday. It's a surreal feeling with a lot of reality. Feels like I live a conscious life while being unconscious, or the other way around.
Most days I can brush these feelings off with jokes and light stuff or work, some days I just implode. I'm also taking weekends off. It has been almost 3 weekends that I find myself naturally NOT working on the weekends. Something that hasn't happened since I came back last September. I think my mind and body is finally taking charge over my stubbornness in certain area.
I suspect that the major reason of my recent weird behaviour other than I'm been without the Sydney oxygen for 2 months is that because things are really moving very very fast around me. I'm trying my best to keep my head above water. The best I've achieved so far is to have it right at my head and if I stop clearing it, it will soon be above again. Maybe that's why I just naturally stopped working so much on the weekends because I wanna catch a breath at any cost.
I know I can do it, it's mostly just temporary. I'm confident I'll come out high and dry in the end. However, like everyone in the midst of it, we all whine and bitch about it, making a big deal out of it when it's really just peas. For the moment, I find myself clinging to old ways more when I really should be moving forward. To have bigger, greater, grander vision. To stand taller, higher, stronger. To do better, and be better. This, is just a bottleneck now.
Alright, enough of my whining and bitching about nothing. Now that it's off my chest a bit, it'll get me going for another week or so. For now I'm happy. For now I'm grateful to all the people around me and I'm thankful of all the help I get. I'm doing something I like, making money out of it, I love my family and I'm happy :D))
On another note, it has been a bit more than a week since Stella left for Europe. I got an email from her last night and I'm over the moon happy to hear from her. How I miss her and her mad mad sanity. Maybe that's why I'm growing increasingly insane...(yes blame it on those traveling in Europe is always the best idea hehe :P)
Went and did some shopping few days ago. Went again yesterday with my sister who ended up spending mad at Mexx. She wore the "Celina" necklace I gave her as her 21st present for the first time. She looked great with it and I suspect part of the reason why she bought so many outfits is due to the necklace. Everything seems to look better with it on :)
My father, who has been the hot and controversial topic around the house lately, has finally agreed to come back and work in the south from June on. I honestly hope he keeps his promise this time. Toleration can only be extended so much. Certain memories and knowledge can only be suppressed for so long.
Oh, been sick for like the hundred millionth time this week. Coughing bad and all. Fever ran for 4 days last weekend. It is really gonna take a while for my body to be in tune with this place. Or is the sign of my body rejecting this place telling me something? Wow, ok, I better stop before I sound more like Carrie Bradshaw... Which will be SCARY!!!
Cel at work has so far seen one local TV actor, Jacky Chan, and Zhang Ai Jia. Quite exciting. I'm making it mandatory for her to bring her camera to work from now on... heh... :)
Friday, April 08, 2005
Ben & Jerry...
Discovering them is one of the delights in life, I believe. Never have I tasted ice cream this good. It's ecstatic. An exhilirating experience one would never think you can get from eating chocolate fudge brownie ice cream... ok... yes... but Ben & Jerry is above and beyond that!!!
After slacking for several weeks (agonising I hope for my dear readers/friends coz I really don't know why else should I keep writing if no one misses my blabbing on and on here...)
So during my absence here, life went on like the sun coming up everyday. I missed many great parties on Sydney but also had a few nice gatherings with my old friends here in HK. Even went to visit Carol in China which reminds me I have still yet to upload the photos we took for her.
Stella left for Europe on the last day of March. She's going for a month and I hope she's gonna meet some hot guys over there while soaking up everything Europe has to offer. But I'm pretty sure Europe alone is a great pleasure already and the hot guys will just be garnish :P
After slacking for several weeks (agonising I hope for my dear readers/friends coz I really don't know why else should I keep writing if no one misses my blabbing on and on here...)
So during my absence here, life went on like the sun coming up everyday. I missed many great parties on Sydney but also had a few nice gatherings with my old friends here in HK. Even went to visit Carol in China which reminds me I have still yet to upload the photos we took for her.
Stella left for Europe on the last day of March. She's going for a month and I hope she's gonna meet some hot guys over there while soaking up everything Europe has to offer. But I'm pretty sure Europe alone is a great pleasure already and the hot guys will just be garnish :P
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