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Copy from Cel's blog...

Saturday, November 27, 2004

fuck you!! you fucking fuck

i have never met anyone as bastard-y as you. you put a whole new definition to the word bastard. you are a walking fuckwit.

qouting my dear friend, "people like him are the reasons why hell exists''. they are not outright bad people where u can just chuck them in jails. they are the ones with hearts so blackened, morals so corrupted and conscientious so filthy, that a special place has to be created for them.

you belong there. you will find joy and contentment with your fellow lowlife creatures. i mean, what more can you ask for. you should be honoured.

i wish you happy there. truly.

posted by cel at 2:15 PM

The Entrance...

The highlight of the day was going to The Entrance. I have heard of this place like a million times but have never been there. But it was good. It was more than good. It was... I almost want to move there and lay on the beach everyday good. Absolutely devine...

Icy cold sea water is my favourite!!!

Got a pretty tan too!!! :D))

Another nice surprise is Gosford. It actually is a pretty nice town. Dad wants to buy a house there... yeah he always wants to buy stuff LOL...

Palm Beach...

Had a great night last night, went home at 4 in the morning and mom went psycho the whole day about it.

I don't know which was the part that got to her, that she didn't have a good sleep or I got home late even thought I'm like only 27!!! Honestly I have not lived with my parents since I was 19 and I also thought I have past the point of being told what time I should be home... I'm not whinging or anything, I really do appreciate their presence here and all that they have done... But I don't think getting home early is what I need to do in return to show my love and respect and appreciation for them. I'm only after all here for another two days... Sad :(

Had a nice long drive to Palm Beach last night, saw the moon rising which was really beautiful and orange. Funny though coz the moon with the clouds had a sad face on. It was truly beautiful. On top of that we had a Phoenix and then a Dragon from the clouds. It got a little Harry Potter but was damn nice. Honestly, the most beautiful time I've had since I came back :)

a pounding heart...

v. exciting about tonight
got some major catch up to do...
i've been a bit nervous for a while now...
ok maybe i'm nervous for some other reasons...
but there are definitely those blushing kind of nervousness...
or i'm just not making sense... which i seem to be making quite often lately...

got a bit of work done today, got some lone time with friends during the day... it's all suddenly looking a little tiny bit better... still searching for my strength...

actually went to the beach!!!

Such magnificent day with walking BBQed human. Went to Dee Why in the afvo. Felt very good even though not in the best shape for beach yet. I miss the beach and the whole scene of it so much even though summer is not my fave season. I'm glad I get to go at least once before I leave. I'm really looking forward to coming back again when this place is a living oven. How good can that be! LMAO! Won't be too good for the bride though as I can imagine...

Extended my stay till Thursday. What girl can resist the temptation of such a delicious place. And I'm not making sense anymore...

Watched BJ's Diary 2 today. She was a retard but it was funny and colin firth... ooh... I'm melting already even without the sun...

Very tired... My darling sofa here I come...

p.s. my sister wrote a very beautiful and touching piece on her blog last night titled "fuck you!! you fucking fuck". those who have the privilege of access to her blog go read it, it was very lovely. thank you again heheheheheheh :P

beach day...

This is the perfect beach day!

Went tea with Bobby and Sandra, David and Amy and Sandra's brother last night. It was a good break from everything else. At the least I got some serious ab exercise from laughing so much.

Cel has got a new car! So exciting! Just hope we can get it sooner. heheheheheh....

Need my vacuum cleaner back!!!

Ok I realise that not many people read this blog. I don't even think my sister reads this. Even though I read hers religiously!!

Sad...

I really am talking to myself :P

abrupt exit....

It has been a very eventful week of compromising, talking, negotiating, deciding and or all things confronting his new girl since I last posted. Well, not exactly confronting, she was in the car he was in between me and the car holding his fist. As if he was ready to knock me out if I so dare to knock on the window and say hi to her. Anyway, the business is dissolved and everything else is finally over... Besides the fine prints... But that should be a cake.

I have surprised many and most of all myself of the kind of behaviour that I can pull under my belt. It felt stupid but somehow liberating in a way. Now I can truly move on. There's nothing about this person that is worth anything at all. What a suck up loser, no wonder he has no friends.

I wrote a whole piece detailing everything that happened and then I erased it. Decided not to post the details, you can ask me face to face if you want to but I'm not gonna waste this valuable space for this ridiculous being.

This is supposed to be a whole new chapter. He smsed me the other day apologising for his abrupt exit after the business talk. Well, that's life, no need for apologies. If it's right, an abrupt exit is exactly what the doctor orders...

Hey sis, I love you :)

and on the second day...

This is a very slow and dreadful day indeed, I can already smell the explosives... mostly from me... but really I'm allowed and he's not.

Oh... I don't know how I'm gonna get through this day... How could he have brought over her laptop and helped her set up windows right in front of me when he's claiming he's working? And to think he had the guts to ask ME if i have the software... How dare he!? Did I just bring this upon myself?

He didn't want to be with me, but want to be involved in the business with me and I'm allowing it... And we can't have a good personal relationship but we can have a good business partnership? How is it that I couldn't trust him as a boyfriend but I should trust him as a business partner? This has to be a buffoon... Please just shoot me... I'm just too chicken to make up my mind and stand by my grounds...

Oh oh oh... a long day ahead, be back later for updates...

in the beginning...to my sis whom i love...

Nov 21, 2004 01:52am ADST, Sydney

Inspired by my lovely sister's sweet blog (ask her if you want hers) and all the spinning of the world that's happening around me (yes me, me, me, it's gotta be about me when it comes to me or I might as well live an out of body experience forever!), I've decided to finally open my own and not get too fussy over account names and such silly things (did however, spent lots of time picking fonts and colour...).

I don't really know who I'm talking to or if I'm talking to anyone, I just want to let things out of my chest and breathe a little, maybe I'm just talking to myself. Gosh... this sound so corny and melodramatic...

Now that I've started this, I don't really feel like letting it out yet. Well at least I have it and can choose to use it anytime I want. Good enough for now.

By the way, I'm back in Sydney for a week so you all please call! Or I'll knock on your door!

Had dinner with Karen and Kerwin tonight then went to Andy's new place for a few hours of chit chatting about nothing. Feels good, long overdued.

Tough day tomorrow, dreading it, now I know why the business world is brutal and cruel, and I haven't even really started yet. I still don't know what to do about my current situation (which after a whole page I realise I'm still word-shy, don't wanna talk, don't wanna mention, just sad).

After an end of something, there's always a beginning of something... just like this blog... now, all I need is a cool brain... :)