Tsunami... Not Just A Drink...

Has been soaking up on news with the tidal wave disasters these few days and feeling very bad for those people. The toll number keeps going up like someone keep changing the numbers on a blank check that will cash. Pictures after pictures of people crying hysterically or frantically searching for their loved ones are beginning to look like a blur... Then they put out the pictures of the bodies... It seems so neverending...

With all the technological powess we command, the pictures deliver a very different message. A country that has spents billions and billions in destroying other people's country, home and livelihood is now giving less that a million to help those who actually have their lives and homes destroyed by natural causes and gravely need assistance. Now, who is evil here? No, you don't need to raise your hands, we can see you horns.

Quite a way to end a year.

A Brand New Look!!!

Just spent hours created a "look" for my block that I'm a bit satisfied with hehehe... took me a long while to figure out the codes and then to choose the colours and stuff!!!

The temperature has suddenly dropped today due to a cold front, I'm overjoyed at the fact that it's finally COLD!!! It's gonna last until after the New Year, too!!!

Anyway, it's late, and cold and I better do some work tomorrow early!!! Hehehe :)

The Mornings After Christmas...

I have not seen mornings since Christmas Eve... mainly coz I couldn't see to get up before noon!!!

The days are really a daze now... Going to little boxing day party thrown by John, mainly the same old bunch anyway, then after tonight, gonna go back to normal and do a little work... honestly I find myself having less and less tolerance towards wondering days and do-nothing-time. It's just a different atmosphere here, taking a break for a day longer and you feel incompetent and unproductive. Bad air really...

Had a great day yesterday wondering around the beaches finding a place to bbq... probably the most disorganised bbq I've ever been to! But I had a lot of fun too even with just 4 people, and using half a tank of gas plus large parking bills...

Still gotta go find a present for tonight's event. The exchanging gift highlight that has not been for quite a while... I think it kinda got thrown out of the window after primary school... Wondering what I should buy... from what I've heard... well... it's just a gesture after all...

Oh some great pics I took the night of the Xmas party... will post when I get my hands on them!!!

Now my hair and face has gone a little weird... partying too much?

Merry Christmas To Y'all!!!

it's Christmas' Eve (though not feeling it coz I'm home all alone and I actually don't have a X'mas tree or any decoration for that matter, rare really!) and I'm off to a party soon. I just want to leave a message for you all who bother to come read my blog...


MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO Y'ALL!!!!

HAVE LOADS OF FUN AND DRINK LIKE A FISH!!!

Anyway I hop everyone really will be happy and anything bad that happened in the past year all be gone when you wake up with a massive hang over the next day!!! See, the hang over will replace all the bad stuff that happened and when that goes away with a lot more drinking nothing bad will happen again!!!

Ok, now I'm a bit worry about my top and my dress and I"m gonna look odd and sit in corner all night being nervous seeing all these people and not knowing too many people there too!!! Very nervous indeed. That there are always stick thin girls parading around... I'm just gonna end up sitting there drinking by myself!!! ARGH!!! I'm pathetic!!!

Anyway I hope the party goes well and everyone who has something going on will also have a great time. Missing my sister too... and mom and dad and a few other people too...

i got my air ticket!!!

ha ha ha!! i got my ticket to sydney confirm!!! am so happy!!! this ticket is bought by dad's asia miles points!!! hehehehe

i will be flying in on Qantas again!!! cute british guy with cute british accent? hmmm.... :P

so sydney here i come again!!!

muahahahahahahah!!!!!!!!!

a very full day...

today is one of those days that i have never felt my stomach gone empty since the moment i got up... there was already breakfast of coz when i woke up and not too long after that i found myself having lunch... very soon we all embarked to jw marriott hotel for their afternoon high tea which by the way was excellent!!! i think i probably had enough energy intake that will last me till after christmas, especially when i have a xmas party to go to on the 24th which requires no extra flesh or any bulging parts coming out... will need to be on hunger strike from today on till that day to achieve such a mission impossible.

i bought a very nice bra today for the top i'm going to wear on friday night as well. very exciting!!! the strap can be positioned behind the neck giving more support than the normal strapless ;) while i was shopping for those, also found out there are a lot of good and nice and pretty and supporting strapless bra... will go back for more after holidays!!! aim to be a VIP member of that place!

bumbed into maggie after shopping for lingerie and then met up with kerwin who was stopping by hk on his way from china to taiwan. walked around a bit then took him to causeway bay for dinner. transport for the night was good old tram ding ding!!!

see... i was quite sure i would not have been able to to eat dinner after such a full day... so what happened there... has gotta stop for the next few days!!!

wish me luck and success!!! hahahahahah :D))

ocean...ocean...ocean...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... wWwWwWoWwWwWw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i went to watch ocean's 12 tonight by myself. after hearing from someone just this afternoon that this movie wasn't as good as it all hyped up to be, i went in with a lowered expectation than i had. well i mostly forgot what the first one felt like and honestly only wanted to watch brad pitt and catherine zeta-jones (boy is she just hot hot hot hot hot or what!!! and he's so much dreamier playing a modern guy in slim fitting suits than bulking up for an acient character if you ask me!!!).

i came out quite dazzled and feeling a bit like i was flying among clouds. man, just watching that movie alone made me feel sexy and gorgeous and very important!!! (secretly thinking perhaps i look as sensational as zeta-jones...)

come to think of it the plot was a bit loose and too intriguing where it's actually a bit all over the place and the character developments were a bit weak... but what the heck! the movie was beautifully shot (fantasizing about jet setting in europe with beautiful people...) and the air was nothing less than total awe! it was one hell of an entertainment!!!

at the end of the day that's what movies are all about!!! i'm just over the moon that i had a pleasant day and a very lovely evening :)

my weekends...

so here i am, weekend again. the only time i get truly some time alone, some space all to myself and i also enjoy it so much. i guess coming back to living with my parents after so many years onmy own take a lot of time to adjust. not that i dont miss them or anything, but i do appreciate the time we have a apart as well. most of the time i do jackshit on the weekend. just lying around at home and well being a normal single gal like i've always been.

a week before Xmas...

i got 2 solid days of work. well i got a little disrupted today coz dad came back and things went a little chaotic... so i listed stuff and actually work on things. not bad indeed.

cel's gonna do the stock take for me tonight and well i really hope things will go smoothly. although given past experiences there's a chance someone might get melodramatic.

still some rough road ahead, but at least i'm off to a good start!

having dinner with edward tonight, catching up and all. mehreen darling if you read this we miss you terribly and please let us know when you have your trip planned!

hmm.., i'm getting boring...

Carol's Store

carol's family's new store in queensway plaza

Johnny Depp For Mont Blanc!!!

johnny depp for mont blanc!!!!

A Very Nice Pic...

grandpa and me hehehe wasnt i cute?

the whiffenpoofs 2003 of yale!!! they were featuered in the west wings season 4 episode 11!!! very cool!!!

help me with his name!!! please!!!

argh!!! i found treasure!!! hahahahahahahahahaha

so it's friday day and i've just rented a bunch of vcd for the weekend and one of them is kate and leopold... just for the gig of it... and guess what!!!??? josh... oh no... bardley whitford is in it!!!!!! and he's super super super charming and drop dead gorgeous as he's always been and even more!!! oh my god!!! this is a little gold i've digged!!! i'm so thrilled!!! and i'm only like 30 mins into it!!! wow!!! i love it!!! i'm so loving the bw part!!! but the rest of it... well... hehe i'll get through it with bw hehehehehe :D))

retail therapy...

when one's mood is swinging in the wrong direction, well, women in general, there's usually just one thing to do... that's what i did today... i bought so much crap that had it not been the lowering of bills and weary mark on my cards that i would have just keep going. it felt good. i'll take care of everything else later...

well i really need to get my ass together and do some work. i'm spending and not earning. bad. i really can't let this emotional baggage drag me any longer. i seem to be the one who's still stuck in the same old place. well technically i was the one who got left behind. all these is so emotionally draining and physically exhausting. but if i'm not gonna die, i still have to live and for its sake i really need to start doing some serious work again. no matter how many nightmares i still get everynight.

this is a weird week. suddenly i seem to feel that all the ideologies i have for men just keep crashing. the idea that there is at least one last man standing of good character seems more like a western movie now. women in the old days had to except the fate that they had to share their man with other women because the man feeds them and as long as he could afford it he could feed as many women as he wanted to. women these days are all financially independence... except that's good coz your man might still decide to find someone else. so you better be able to look after yourself. i know this whole theory is very twisted. but the irony of it is just inescapable!

well at least i got myself a mug and some xmas cards and lots of post its... i'm happy... :)

hmmm...

In Mooney Mooney.. Thanks to Dad insisting to write caption on every photo. Missing my sis a lot...

a lazy perfectionist???

there's an idling quality in the air today. or perhaps it is just me who's being lazy and not wanting to do shit. other than a couple of emails i didn't really do much today. well, only half the day is gone so i still have time. think i'm watching BJ2 again tonight...

i know i have a lot of shit to do, but i seem to be quite lost for no reason. i eagerly want to start anew and i know financial wise it's also an imminent matter. so why can't i get my shit together and get something done?

spend like an hour picking different backgrounds and themes for my blog. i only keep picking from the templates but none of them satisfy me a 100% or even close. it's either the layout or the font or the colour, etc, something's never quite right. i know i can always edit it using the code, but i'm too lazy. so i'm just sitting here complaining about nothing, about something i could really get done but just too lazy to...

i'm sitting here complaining about being lazy and why i havent gotten things done. ok this is really a new low. maybe i should blame it on all the sake i had last night. it must have killed a couple billion more of my brain cells and that's why i'm a bit slow today.

actually, i know very well why i've been so lazy. without sounding like a whiner, i really feel it's very tough to start something all over again and to bring it to the level right before everything crashed with such short time. i feel very helpless...

my angel

a little something that touched my heart...

This is an except from Bill Clinton's biography...

"...that no one is perfect but most people are good; that people can't be judged only by their worst or weakest moments; that harsh judgments can make hypocrites of us all; that a lot of life is just showing up and hanging on; that laughter is often the best, and sometimes the only, response to pain. Perhaps most important, I learned that everyone has a story - of dreams and nightmares, hope and heartache, love and loss, courage and fear, sacrifice and selfishness."

- P.15, My Life, Bill Clinton

QF 29

Dreadful flight, not a single cute guy in sight. Perhaps even fate is not on my side that it’s never meant to be a fun trip back. Where are all the cute Brits with their charming accent?

Well then again I only wanted some sort of comfort or candy for the eyes. Would never have really actually picked up anyone on a plane!

I did something crazy in duty free… (Oh shut up, everyone goes crazy in duty free anyway!). I bought a bottle of men’s perfume. The same smell that brought me joy and comfort in the past few days. Very soothing especially when used to fend off smelly feet in flight!

Kinda tired. But there are smelly feet around me. Hate it when people who takes their shoes off doesn’t have a clue that their feet smell!!! Come on!!!

Very rude flight attendant serving this side of the plane. Mr. Chris is having a bad flight today. It’s not his fault that he doesn’t understand Chinese and it’s not the passenger’s fault that they don’t speak the language. All I can say is that he’s not a very good ambassador for Qantas. Anyhow… will see how he goes.

weetbix...

leaving today... very sad... on the one hand wanna get back to work asap on the other wanna stay here for as long as can be...

well... gotta go now...

star gazing...

been to so many beaches the last few days it's truly wonderful! this is what taking a break is all about!!

it's surreal lying on a beach on a foggy and cloudy night trying to star gaze, but in the end they all showed up and it was nice. beach at night is pretty good every now and then. very soothing. very relaxing. very exciting.

come morning time... that's a whole new story... 4 ppl in one house is really too much to deal with. i can't believe the amount of nagging i'm getting it's ridiculous. there's never a foot right whatever i do. picking bones from an egg would have been easier!

another hot summer day... wish i'm lying on a beach now...

if you're bored with me... here's where you go...

http://sleeepy.blogpot.com

you'll find happiness, meanings, contentment, fulfilment, all things beautiful, never ending and continuous mind blowing stimulating joyful sensation...

i'll be here waiting for your return patiently at the end you journey, when you located the light switch :)

Copy from Cel's blog...

Saturday, November 27, 2004

fuck you!! you fucking fuck

i have never met anyone as bastard-y as you. you put a whole new definition to the word bastard. you are a walking fuckwit.

qouting my dear friend, "people like him are the reasons why hell exists''. they are not outright bad people where u can just chuck them in jails. they are the ones with hearts so blackened, morals so corrupted and conscientious so filthy, that a special place has to be created for them.

you belong there. you will find joy and contentment with your fellow lowlife creatures. i mean, what more can you ask for. you should be honoured.

i wish you happy there. truly.

posted by cel at 2:15 PM

The Entrance...

The highlight of the day was going to The Entrance. I have heard of this place like a million times but have never been there. But it was good. It was more than good. It was... I almost want to move there and lay on the beach everyday good. Absolutely devine...

Icy cold sea water is my favourite!!!

Got a pretty tan too!!! :D))

Another nice surprise is Gosford. It actually is a pretty nice town. Dad wants to buy a house there... yeah he always wants to buy stuff LOL...

Palm Beach...

Had a great night last night, went home at 4 in the morning and mom went psycho the whole day about it.

I don't know which was the part that got to her, that she didn't have a good sleep or I got home late even thought I'm like only 27!!! Honestly I have not lived with my parents since I was 19 and I also thought I have past the point of being told what time I should be home... I'm not whinging or anything, I really do appreciate their presence here and all that they have done... But I don't think getting home early is what I need to do in return to show my love and respect and appreciation for them. I'm only after all here for another two days... Sad :(

Had a nice long drive to Palm Beach last night, saw the moon rising which was really beautiful and orange. Funny though coz the moon with the clouds had a sad face on. It was truly beautiful. On top of that we had a Phoenix and then a Dragon from the clouds. It got a little Harry Potter but was damn nice. Honestly, the most beautiful time I've had since I came back :)

a pounding heart...

v. exciting about tonight
got some major catch up to do...
i've been a bit nervous for a while now...
ok maybe i'm nervous for some other reasons...
but there are definitely those blushing kind of nervousness...
or i'm just not making sense... which i seem to be making quite often lately...

got a bit of work done today, got some lone time with friends during the day... it's all suddenly looking a little tiny bit better... still searching for my strength...

actually went to the beach!!!

Such magnificent day with walking BBQed human. Went to Dee Why in the afvo. Felt very good even though not in the best shape for beach yet. I miss the beach and the whole scene of it so much even though summer is not my fave season. I'm glad I get to go at least once before I leave. I'm really looking forward to coming back again when this place is a living oven. How good can that be! LMAO! Won't be too good for the bride though as I can imagine...

Extended my stay till Thursday. What girl can resist the temptation of such a delicious place. And I'm not making sense anymore...

Watched BJ's Diary 2 today. She was a retard but it was funny and colin firth... ooh... I'm melting already even without the sun...

Very tired... My darling sofa here I come...

p.s. my sister wrote a very beautiful and touching piece on her blog last night titled "fuck you!! you fucking fuck". those who have the privilege of access to her blog go read it, it was very lovely. thank you again heheheheheheh :P

beach day...

This is the perfect beach day!

Went tea with Bobby and Sandra, David and Amy and Sandra's brother last night. It was a good break from everything else. At the least I got some serious ab exercise from laughing so much.

Cel has got a new car! So exciting! Just hope we can get it sooner. heheheheheh....

Need my vacuum cleaner back!!!

Ok I realise that not many people read this blog. I don't even think my sister reads this. Even though I read hers religiously!!

Sad...

I really am talking to myself :P

abrupt exit....

It has been a very eventful week of compromising, talking, negotiating, deciding and or all things confronting his new girl since I last posted. Well, not exactly confronting, she was in the car he was in between me and the car holding his fist. As if he was ready to knock me out if I so dare to knock on the window and say hi to her. Anyway, the business is dissolved and everything else is finally over... Besides the fine prints... But that should be a cake.

I have surprised many and most of all myself of the kind of behaviour that I can pull under my belt. It felt stupid but somehow liberating in a way. Now I can truly move on. There's nothing about this person that is worth anything at all. What a suck up loser, no wonder he has no friends.

I wrote a whole piece detailing everything that happened and then I erased it. Decided not to post the details, you can ask me face to face if you want to but I'm not gonna waste this valuable space for this ridiculous being.

This is supposed to be a whole new chapter. He smsed me the other day apologising for his abrupt exit after the business talk. Well, that's life, no need for apologies. If it's right, an abrupt exit is exactly what the doctor orders...

Hey sis, I love you :)

and on the second day...

This is a very slow and dreadful day indeed, I can already smell the explosives... mostly from me... but really I'm allowed and he's not.

Oh... I don't know how I'm gonna get through this day... How could he have brought over her laptop and helped her set up windows right in front of me when he's claiming he's working? And to think he had the guts to ask ME if i have the software... How dare he!? Did I just bring this upon myself?

He didn't want to be with me, but want to be involved in the business with me and I'm allowing it... And we can't have a good personal relationship but we can have a good business partnership? How is it that I couldn't trust him as a boyfriend but I should trust him as a business partner? This has to be a buffoon... Please just shoot me... I'm just too chicken to make up my mind and stand by my grounds...

Oh oh oh... a long day ahead, be back later for updates...

in the beginning...to my sis whom i love...

Nov 21, 2004 01:52am ADST, Sydney

Inspired by my lovely sister's sweet blog (ask her if you want hers) and all the spinning of the world that's happening around me (yes me, me, me, it's gotta be about me when it comes to me or I might as well live an out of body experience forever!), I've decided to finally open my own and not get too fussy over account names and such silly things (did however, spent lots of time picking fonts and colour...).

I don't really know who I'm talking to or if I'm talking to anyone, I just want to let things out of my chest and breathe a little, maybe I'm just talking to myself. Gosh... this sound so corny and melodramatic...

Now that I've started this, I don't really feel like letting it out yet. Well at least I have it and can choose to use it anytime I want. Good enough for now.

By the way, I'm back in Sydney for a week so you all please call! Or I'll knock on your door!

Had dinner with Karen and Kerwin tonight then went to Andy's new place for a few hours of chit chatting about nothing. Feels good, long overdued.

Tough day tomorrow, dreading it, now I know why the business world is brutal and cruel, and I haven't even really started yet. I still don't know what to do about my current situation (which after a whole page I realise I'm still word-shy, don't wanna talk, don't wanna mention, just sad).

After an end of something, there's always a beginning of something... just like this blog... now, all I need is a cool brain... :)