boiling blood...

sometimes one wonders if the nastiness in one's character is really brought on by environment or if it's already certain something in the character that directs how one reacts...

at any given time or day there's no predicting what someone might do... i saw two very hurt ppl tonight attemping to talk... whose kidding who? those who are brave enough to stand up and say they may not the the total victim and try to take some responsibility gets stymy to ground zero. is playing victim really the better of two evils? it's not a game and no one wins but a lot of people lost. maybe our society is really full of walking zombies with limbs they can't lift while trying to find their life again. whoever run slower gets buffy. (with no disrespect to the show as i must admit secretly that i have watched many a slayer fest...)

i want to keep my respect for certain people, and keep my cool... but in this situation... i can't help but say, what a loser, low life fucker that some people can turn out to be when they are stung. we are all victims of our own actions... why shove it in someone else's face? the donations should have come from within us...