while my lovely sister has been partying up a storm and curing herself of a hang over from the party, this weekend saw me working both days from 1pm till end for the first time. boy was it a total killer... saturday was a mildly busy day before a party of 40 indoor plus some company dinner outdoor (totally not my problem since ah man was the only person outside). finished at 1230 and that was quite a record. then come an unbelievably busy sunday from lunch to dinner with really just 20 mins of lunch break. total chaos and the place just crashed LOL. finished 1130. so my legs are dead and my feet non-existent and all in all i just want to crash too. well since i dont consider myself to be the person who has the toughest time i really shouldn't be complaining about it.
christopher and florence stopped by late in the afternoon before the unveiling of the bruce lee statue that he helped engineered and laid the foundation stone with. it was nice they came visit me and saw me honestly working very hard since i didnt show up for grandma's birthday dinner last night and numerous family gatherings (well we do have a lot since it's such a huge family!!!).
so it was all non-stop action but at least worth the while instead of starting work early and have nothing to do at all!
another busy week ahead but at least i got monday off from the restaurant hehehe :) no complains there this time :D
i was gonna complain about this dwarf like witch at work but well, the steam is off the moment i dont see her so am not gonna devout my precious column inches (or in this case enormous cyber space vacuum) to her hehehe but those in the know will know exactly how i feel and why she does warrant a few alphabets here :)
Monday, November 28, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
nice cool change...
finally the temperature has gone down with lots of cool air. the weather has been absolutely beautiful these couple of days. clear sky, lovely sun and dry cool 17 degrees outside! i was told winter came a bit late this year but the suddent and dramatic drop in temp (10 degrees in 2 days) is a welcome change. well i was never a fan of summer except the aussie ones where i can be a bump and no one cares hehe :)
going to be very busy in the coming month with lots and lots of work but i'm happy about that. first time in my life i'm doing real work all the time!
went to pacific place the other day and picked up 2 six packs of coopers sparkling ale (red label altough i prefer green but that's the only one they have and i'm not complaining, drinking it now in fact) and also a bottle of hardy's oomoo shiraz (just finished will get more soon). the one where cel and karen got so drunk from on bobby's wedding. it is a good wine indeed and i was so over the moon when i found that! they sold out the turkey flat rose i was looking for but i'll be back for more when they have it in stock again.
so i went to the towngas annual dinner last saturday and sure i have a lot to talk about it. but i will do that later. still trying to remember it LOL.
going to be very busy in the coming month with lots and lots of work but i'm happy about that. first time in my life i'm doing real work all the time!
went to pacific place the other day and picked up 2 six packs of coopers sparkling ale (red label altough i prefer green but that's the only one they have and i'm not complaining, drinking it now in fact) and also a bottle of hardy's oomoo shiraz (just finished will get more soon). the one where cel and karen got so drunk from on bobby's wedding. it is a good wine indeed and i was so over the moon when i found that! they sold out the turkey flat rose i was looking for but i'll be back for more when they have it in stock again.
so i went to the towngas annual dinner last saturday and sure i have a lot to talk about it. but i will do that later. still trying to remember it LOL.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Pre-Xmas shopping spree...
I think the title pretty much explained it all... Yes I went shopping yesterday and got a lot of goodies! hehe When I get home, I realised everything I bought was in black... oh well... the important thing is... I spent a lot of money, so much it earned me the FCUK VIP card that will give me 20% for my future purchase there as well as 2 cardigans (really cool ones) for my sister :p hehehe
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
One year on...
It's been almost one year to the date when the last nail was hammered into the coffin of a 3 year drama that consumed my entire being for the duration of it. I shed a tear, stirred a small storm, smiled and move on with my head low and under the radar. So much has happened since then that in hindsight I realize it has been haunting me from beyond its grave with hits after hits of tsunami waves that even a light breeze still send chills down my spine, set my head spinning and my heart pumping hard even though today I finally stand a bit firmer on the ground and a bit taller than I did a year ago. I'm not gonna elaborate on what happened since most of you already know what happened.
Sometimes I like to think I get to where I am today because of my perseverance but often times I also think I'm a weakling for jumping at the smallest details that I seem to be addicted to search for. Not knowing whether it's just a storm that belongs to the tea cup or the sea, or if it's even a storm at all. My overreaction is sometimes due to the heartache that is usually associated with such experiences in life and sometimes due to my overcompensation of my gullible personality that prevents me from believing the evil side of human beings. Although I should add that the fact I overcompensate seems to mean that I am already slowing beginning to be less gullible and I'm just learning how to deal with the harsh reality of life. No kidding, I'm such a greenhouse baby, and probably still am.
That greenhouse is sometimes given and often times created by me so that I can paint a rosy picture of life and the world to cope with the troubles at home since early on and not have to deal with them like others do. And for a person of my age (still very young!!!) I've had the good fortune (??) to do just that for a long while. Running away from reality was the best thing I ever mastered. Away from the mess around me. In the end, I think I created the biggest mess for myself by running, by escaping, by turning a blind eye. I like to think that that day a year ago was when I fell from the little heaven I created for myself, cracked my wings, and started picking up the pieces I have missed.
Quite an irony for someone who loves planes and space and sincerely dreams of being an astronaut (it's no secret that I was once a geek:0)) and to go beyond this earth that I find myself doing something that couldn't have nailed my feet firmer to the ground and even home bound, literally.
5 months ago when I flew back from Sydney I cried all the way of a 9 hour flight. When I wasn't crying, I was sleeping due to exhaustion from all the crying and when I woke I started crying again. I cried so hard for the rest of the trip home until I took my contacts out, my vision was so blurred it was like looking through the eyes of a drunk (and I probably was too). I knew it was the last time for a long while that I'll have a legitimate reason to go back to Sydney, that from then on, I really have no way back but forward. I hated the idea of leaving Sydney and living in HK in what seems a very permanent sense, I still hate that but part of me made peace with it and I'm coping quite ok. I've had more than my fair chances at achieving alternative outcomes and I didn't make the best use of them, now I'm only glad I still have this great opportunity to make my life again. This time I pray for the will and determination to carry through. I made a promise to myself that I will make the best out of the time I'm here and very soon I will be back strutting down the streets of Sydney with my head held high and making it my home again.
Yes, this is a piece about me, me and me. I write this for me. I write this to remind myself of the promises I've made and to give me strengths when the road is tough. Of course I would never dare to brush aside the enormous help and support and love I have been given by my parents, my dear darling sister (she kicks ass!!!) and all the loving friends who have been by my side all along. Especially all the fiercely strong women whom I love dearly and get to keep in touch with these days by all the internet gadgets :)
I wonder why no one ever told a girl that when she moves a thousand miles away, her girlfriends are the ones she will miss the most and whose support she will rely on the most. In the spirit of an Oscar acceptance speech (which I'm beginning to feel this is like one), here are the girlfriends who have made profound impacts on my life. My sister, my best friend in the world, she's the rock of my life and I can never imagine what life would be without her. I love her so so much and don't anyone think about bullying her, I'll raise an army of one against you all :) And in alphabetical order of their first name (geez this is turning out to be a very bad Oscar-like speech LOL) Angela, Carol, Divini, Karen, Mehreen, Stella, you may not know each other but you all rock. I love you and I miss you even more.
So on this night, I'll allow myself to mourn a little of the things that have dragged me down like a bad Bold and Beautiful episode (yeah, I gotta stop watching that too I think...) in the past year, of a meaningful relationship with a wonderful person that sadly got entangled in the whole mess, that I totally screwed and deeply regret screwing it up, that in the fantasy of my delusional little mind hope will one day turn around, of the self pity and agonizing desperation I sometimes allowed myself to be trapped in. Then after this night, there's really no reason to bitch about things that are long gone and I'll not let them drag me down anymore. Or at least I'll work very hard to fake it till I make it! To act as if I have faith and faith shall be given to me. (Yes, I stole this line and I think my sister will be the only person who knows where I steal it from :P)
Sometimes I like to think I get to where I am today because of my perseverance but often times I also think I'm a weakling for jumping at the smallest details that I seem to be addicted to search for. Not knowing whether it's just a storm that belongs to the tea cup or the sea, or if it's even a storm at all. My overreaction is sometimes due to the heartache that is usually associated with such experiences in life and sometimes due to my overcompensation of my gullible personality that prevents me from believing the evil side of human beings. Although I should add that the fact I overcompensate seems to mean that I am already slowing beginning to be less gullible and I'm just learning how to deal with the harsh reality of life. No kidding, I'm such a greenhouse baby, and probably still am.
That greenhouse is sometimes given and often times created by me so that I can paint a rosy picture of life and the world to cope with the troubles at home since early on and not have to deal with them like others do. And for a person of my age (still very young!!!) I've had the good fortune (??) to do just that for a long while. Running away from reality was the best thing I ever mastered. Away from the mess around me. In the end, I think I created the biggest mess for myself by running, by escaping, by turning a blind eye. I like to think that that day a year ago was when I fell from the little heaven I created for myself, cracked my wings, and started picking up the pieces I have missed.
Quite an irony for someone who loves planes and space and sincerely dreams of being an astronaut (it's no secret that I was once a geek:0)) and to go beyond this earth that I find myself doing something that couldn't have nailed my feet firmer to the ground and even home bound, literally.
5 months ago when I flew back from Sydney I cried all the way of a 9 hour flight. When I wasn't crying, I was sleeping due to exhaustion from all the crying and when I woke I started crying again. I cried so hard for the rest of the trip home until I took my contacts out, my vision was so blurred it was like looking through the eyes of a drunk (and I probably was too). I knew it was the last time for a long while that I'll have a legitimate reason to go back to Sydney, that from then on, I really have no way back but forward. I hated the idea of leaving Sydney and living in HK in what seems a very permanent sense, I still hate that but part of me made peace with it and I'm coping quite ok. I've had more than my fair chances at achieving alternative outcomes and I didn't make the best use of them, now I'm only glad I still have this great opportunity to make my life again. This time I pray for the will and determination to carry through. I made a promise to myself that I will make the best out of the time I'm here and very soon I will be back strutting down the streets of Sydney with my head held high and making it my home again.
Yes, this is a piece about me, me and me. I write this for me. I write this to remind myself of the promises I've made and to give me strengths when the road is tough. Of course I would never dare to brush aside the enormous help and support and love I have been given by my parents, my dear darling sister (she kicks ass!!!) and all the loving friends who have been by my side all along. Especially all the fiercely strong women whom I love dearly and get to keep in touch with these days by all the internet gadgets :)
I wonder why no one ever told a girl that when she moves a thousand miles away, her girlfriends are the ones she will miss the most and whose support she will rely on the most. In the spirit of an Oscar acceptance speech (which I'm beginning to feel this is like one), here are the girlfriends who have made profound impacts on my life. My sister, my best friend in the world, she's the rock of my life and I can never imagine what life would be without her. I love her so so much and don't anyone think about bullying her, I'll raise an army of one against you all :) And in alphabetical order of their first name (geez this is turning out to be a very bad Oscar-like speech LOL) Angela, Carol, Divini, Karen, Mehreen, Stella, you may not know each other but you all rock. I love you and I miss you even more.
So on this night, I'll allow myself to mourn a little of the things that have dragged me down like a bad Bold and Beautiful episode (yeah, I gotta stop watching that too I think...) in the past year, of a meaningful relationship with a wonderful person that sadly got entangled in the whole mess, that I totally screwed and deeply regret screwing it up, that in the fantasy of my delusional little mind hope will one day turn around, of the self pity and agonizing desperation I sometimes allowed myself to be trapped in. Then after this night, there's really no reason to bitch about things that are long gone and I'll not let them drag me down anymore. Or at least I'll work very hard to fake it till I make it! To act as if I have faith and faith shall be given to me. (Yes, I stole this line and I think my sister will be the only person who knows where I steal it from :P)
Saturday, October 22, 2005
long break...
wow, i'm really one lazy girl... last posted since june and lots of stuff happened in between just me too lazy to write about them... from a forgiving letter to my work, to parties and such, to a charming italian guy who made me left me keys at work and had to wake mom up to get in the door... and how great the new season of west wing is.
but elaborating all these in hindside will take a little more creativity than this depressing place is so i'm gonna go off to procracinate a little more and write more later :)
but elaborating all these in hindside will take a little more creativity than this depressing place is so i'm gonna go off to procracinate a little more and write more later :)
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
What's going on in the world???
Had a tough week last week... the ripple effect will probably last a few months I'd imagine... So any things spinning around it's hard to notice when one ends and the other starts... I have no idea what I'm talking about...
One good news though... after getting screwed by Nasa for about 2 months with their smoke-screen of a launch window they have finally announced that the space shuttle Discovery is lifting off July 13 after... well, simply too long. I'm eagerly anticipating watching it live again after a long void in my life hehe :P
I miss my sister... more importantly miss her as an extra punch bag for my parents heh :D
One good news though... after getting screwed by Nasa for about 2 months with their smoke-screen of a launch window they have finally announced that the space shuttle Discovery is lifting off July 13 after... well, simply too long. I'm eagerly anticipating watching it live again after a long void in my life hehe :P
I miss my sister... more importantly miss her as an extra punch bag for my parents heh :D
Saturday, June 25, 2005
a very busy week...
ARGH~~~ all that I wrote has been erased because my connection went dead for a while...
Okay here's what I said...
As I was saying, I haven't quite stopped going out since I came back form Sydney (14 days of non-stop fun!!!). I am beginning to wonder what the down time might feel like after such an amazing month!!!
Came back late on Friday night, then on Saturday night went dinner with K2 then went out with the usual bunch (Danny, Antony, Maggie and Cherry) for drinks in Causeway Bay; Sunday night I think I stayed home; Monday night I think I stayed home; Tuesday night went movie (Batman) and drinks with Ringo; Wednesday night went dinner with family and drinks with TGA bunch (Man, Danny, Ringo and his friend, no Gordon...heh...); Thursday night went movie (Star Wars III) with family; Friday night went drinks with the usual bunch (Danny, Antony, Johnny at Johnny's request). Quite an amazing calendar indeed!!!
Okay, that's my recap for the week's events...
Oh and eBay for back to me regarding Tiesbay and although it's not the best news but I believe there is a bit more room for negotiation now... Still I wish the fucking fucker would go to hell and suffer for eternity...
Okay that's about all I wanna say for now... Oh and I found myself missing Jackson quite a bit... hmmm...
Signing off...
Eagerly awaiting for the launch of the space shuttle this month...
Okay here's what I said...
As I was saying, I haven't quite stopped going out since I came back form Sydney (14 days of non-stop fun!!!). I am beginning to wonder what the down time might feel like after such an amazing month!!!
Came back late on Friday night, then on Saturday night went dinner with K2 then went out with the usual bunch (Danny, Antony, Maggie and Cherry) for drinks in Causeway Bay; Sunday night I think I stayed home; Monday night I think I stayed home; Tuesday night went movie (Batman) and drinks with Ringo; Wednesday night went dinner with family and drinks with TGA bunch (Man, Danny, Ringo and his friend, no Gordon...heh...); Thursday night went movie (Star Wars III) with family; Friday night went drinks with the usual bunch (Danny, Antony, Johnny at Johnny's request). Quite an amazing calendar indeed!!!
Okay, that's my recap for the week's events...
Oh and eBay for back to me regarding Tiesbay and although it's not the best news but I believe there is a bit more room for negotiation now... Still I wish the fucking fucker would go to hell and suffer for eternity...
Okay that's about all I wanna say for now... Oh and I found myself missing Jackson quite a bit... hmmm...
Signing off...
Eagerly awaiting for the launch of the space shuttle this month...
Friday, June 24, 2005
My New Curler...
I bought myself a nice curler today. It's a Vidal Sassoon Ceramic Instant Heat Iron Curler. I've tried it out today although it doesn't look as good as when my hair stylist did it on me, but hey I got myself my first curler and I'm gonna practice as long as my hair is not damaged! Hehe... So happy now...
On a more somber note... my speeding fine was doubled tonight due to non payment so as a penalty they doubled the fine. In my own defense I never received the first notice to pay my fine after I have declared myself to be the driver... I was still waiting... but that doesn't mean shit since now I have to pay a HKD$900 fine... Shit shit shit... Never to occur again... It's a painful experience...
Watched Star Wars III tonight. It was so much better than the last one and quite a good ending to the prequels (frankly there are way too many prequels these days started since the star wars series and hopefully this will put an end to Hollywood's obsession to prequels once and for all!!!). I've been complaining for the past few months that I never go to the cinemas anymore and here I go watching two blockbusters in 3 days! Quite a record I must say!
Oh the one 3 days ago was Batman. It wasn't too bad and given my love for Christian Bale I thought it was a marvelous movie! (heh...) The little imperfection of that film would definitely be Katie Holmes... And at the beginning of the movie when Liam Neeson was training the Batman-To-Be, for a second there I thought I was watching a Star Wars/Batman crossover... Then again two beautiful, gorgeous man engaged in a fight is always ice cream to the eyes :D
On a more somber note... my speeding fine was doubled tonight due to non payment so as a penalty they doubled the fine. In my own defense I never received the first notice to pay my fine after I have declared myself to be the driver... I was still waiting... but that doesn't mean shit since now I have to pay a HKD$900 fine... Shit shit shit... Never to occur again... It's a painful experience...
Watched Star Wars III tonight. It was so much better than the last one and quite a good ending to the prequels (frankly there are way too many prequels these days started since the star wars series and hopefully this will put an end to Hollywood's obsession to prequels once and for all!!!). I've been complaining for the past few months that I never go to the cinemas anymore and here I go watching two blockbusters in 3 days! Quite a record I must say!
Oh the one 3 days ago was Batman. It wasn't too bad and given my love for Christian Bale I thought it was a marvelous movie! (heh...) The little imperfection of that film would definitely be Katie Holmes... And at the beginning of the movie when Liam Neeson was training the Batman-To-Be, for a second there I thought I was watching a Star Wars/Batman crossover... Then again two beautiful, gorgeous man engaged in a fight is always ice cream to the eyes :D
Monday, June 20, 2005
Back In HK...
back for 2 days... still miserable... i miss sydney, i miss my darling sister, and i miss everyone there... cried all the way on the flight back... think i scared the couple behind me too...
my last night there i had dinner with jackson and we had a great night (well at least i did...)... it's sad to say goodbye this time around... coz this time around i dont have a definite date when i'm coming back... there's no wedding, no graduation, no nothing i can use to justify going back other than i just really need to be there... or maybe it's a better reason?
catch up with friends from college too, it was a great few hours... college was a blast regardless...
and i love hanging out with all my girl friends... and k with ricky...
i have much to say... but think i should stop whining about it... or at least keep them to myself... so i can buy myself some time mourning my not being in sydney before my sister kicks in to tell me it's not really that bad... she's in sydney... so back off!!! ok i'm scared of her and more i miss her terribly... and i'm constantly worry about how she's doing there alone after all that's happened...
i'll be back!!!
my last night there i had dinner with jackson and we had a great night (well at least i did...)... it's sad to say goodbye this time around... coz this time around i dont have a definite date when i'm coming back... there's no wedding, no graduation, no nothing i can use to justify going back other than i just really need to be there... or maybe it's a better reason?
catch up with friends from college too, it was a great few hours... college was a blast regardless...
and i love hanging out with all my girl friends... and k with ricky...
i have much to say... but think i should stop whining about it... or at least keep them to myself... so i can buy myself some time mourning my not being in sydney before my sister kicks in to tell me it's not really that bad... she's in sydney... so back off!!! ok i'm scared of her and more i miss her terribly... and i'm constantly worry about how she's doing there alone after all that's happened...
i'll be back!!!
Friday, May 06, 2005
A New Move...
Finally today the world seem a little less crazy and a bit more normal after the wirlwind events of the last few days. Yes, I have move into my own little place, my apartment, my office, my pad... It's quite a surreal experience but it's all happening! This is where I'm gonna crunch out my living and make my wave from now on! It's super! :D
I know the bedroom still need more decoration but I'll work hard on that heh :)
Meanwhile, on my cable channels, on of them is ABC Asia Pacific and between news they show reruns of Water Rats... Wonder if Neighbours would be on... hmmm...
Also, am confirm to be back in Syd on the 4th of June... so everyone please be ready to go out that Sat night!!! haha :D))
I know the bedroom still need more decoration but I'll work hard on that heh :)
Meanwhile, on my cable channels, on of them is ABC Asia Pacific and between news they show reruns of Water Rats... Wonder if Neighbours would be on... hmmm...
Also, am confirm to be back in Syd on the 4th of June... so everyone please be ready to go out that Sat night!!! haha :D))
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Greetings from a dear friend backpacking in Europe...
Heh... so happy tonight to hear from Stella all the way in Krakow, Poland. She's been gone for about 2 weeks now and thanks to cheap Internet access in Poland (I think it's Poland since she's using Polish money...) I get to chat with her on MSN tonight. Super duper happy!!! So glad to hear from her since I've been missing her terribly. Friends... something you take for granted when they are there all the time... Anyway, so she's a little tired but excited with her trip so far and I think she's already planning on her next trip there!!! Haha!!! I really hope she'll keep having fun and bring all those back to us when we finally meet again in June!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!
I had my first Francaise lecon tonight and it was kinda fun. Well, nothing more than learning how to count from 1-10 and discovering that the French are both lazy in counting numbers and probably genius in mathematics because of that. My classmates seems nice too so far and I'm looking forward to using my tongue and throat more... speaking the language of cause coz I think the action part I'm aready quite good at... heh... :P (I should be blushing while saying this right? Or perhaps should not even mention it here at all? haha)
Finally my pain has subsided quite a lot today and I'm hoping this won't repeat itself the next time around. Gonna try take better care of myself so I don't have to lie in bed crying of pain. It's gonna be a hectic month ahead with my moving into my own place in 2 weeks' time!!! YES!!! I'm moving to live by myself! It's gonna be my little home office! Still can't believe how quickly this happened! Gonna keep working very hard so I can go back to Oz land more! Very thrilled! :D
Will also join a gym soon to do some exercise... missing my own gym now that I have to go pay to use one but I'm sure it's worth it!
I had my first Francaise lecon tonight and it was kinda fun. Well, nothing more than learning how to count from 1-10 and discovering that the French are both lazy in counting numbers and probably genius in mathematics because of that. My classmates seems nice too so far and I'm looking forward to using my tongue and throat more... speaking the language of cause coz I think the action part I'm aready quite good at... heh... :P (I should be blushing while saying this right? Or perhaps should not even mention it here at all? haha)
Finally my pain has subsided quite a lot today and I'm hoping this won't repeat itself the next time around. Gonna try take better care of myself so I don't have to lie in bed crying of pain. It's gonna be a hectic month ahead with my moving into my own place in 2 weeks' time!!! YES!!! I'm moving to live by myself! It's gonna be my little home office! Still can't believe how quickly this happened! Gonna keep working very hard so I can go back to Oz land more! Very thrilled! :D
Will also join a gym soon to do some exercise... missing my own gym now that I have to go pay to use one but I'm sure it's worth it!
Thursday, April 14, 2005
The agony of being a woman...
I know, at the risk of sounding like a whinny, inappreciative bitch (a.k.a. Carrie Bradshaw) which my sister already thinks that I've become, I still have to whine this one last bit (for now anyway).
Suffering from the worse ever monthly cycle pain of my life, I realise for the first time that maybe there really are a lot of things wrong with my body and they just might not go away quietly or pretend they don't exist. After 3 days of pain, I finally found a Chinese herbal doctor who actually came up with the right formular to ease the pain for a few good hours. Going back to see him again tomorrow but for now, the pain is back again. I am resisting the temptaion to drug myself crazy with painkillers as it really doesn't cure anything, but it had better go away soon as it's really dragging me down a lot. I really don't remember when was the last time I was in so much pain that I cried all night. It really drains my energy and make me realise how crappy I am :(
On the other hand, I'm am extremely grateful that I have a great mother and a super lovely sister who helped massaged me to help ease my pain. My sister even took the couch after I moved back in to the room due to the extreme pain :) So from now on, I really hope I will do better at taking care of my body and stuff. I really don't want this to happen again in another 4 weeks. It's tormenting.
Suffering from the worse ever monthly cycle pain of my life, I realise for the first time that maybe there really are a lot of things wrong with my body and they just might not go away quietly or pretend they don't exist. After 3 days of pain, I finally found a Chinese herbal doctor who actually came up with the right formular to ease the pain for a few good hours. Going back to see him again tomorrow but for now, the pain is back again. I am resisting the temptaion to drug myself crazy with painkillers as it really doesn't cure anything, but it had better go away soon as it's really dragging me down a lot. I really don't remember when was the last time I was in so much pain that I cried all night. It really drains my energy and make me realise how crappy I am :(
On the other hand, I'm am extremely grateful that I have a great mother and a super lovely sister who helped massaged me to help ease my pain. My sister even took the couch after I moved back in to the room due to the extreme pain :) So from now on, I really hope I will do better at taking care of my body and stuff. I really don't want this to happen again in another 4 weeks. It's tormenting.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Comp 123 revisited...
Thanks to the link from Jackson's page, I finally know how to put links in my sidebar. I have now linked Stella and Cel's blog to mine and I'm very happy. Anyone else wanna be on my link? :)
On a more serious note. Stupid Windows XP always getting me in trouble!!! Lately it seems that whatever I've done, I have now been forbidden to change certain programs, e.g. upgrade, uninstall, change, etc. Not all, but just a few. It keeps saying that I do not have the permission level and I should talk to the system administrator. The thing is, my account is already the administrator. Also this has never happened before. I know that during my attempt to get rid of some virus and spyware from my computer I might have changed some settings, but I really can't remember what I did that might have upset the system. If anyone out there can help me, I'd really really appreciate! THANKS!!!
On a more serious note. Stupid Windows XP always getting me in trouble!!! Lately it seems that whatever I've done, I have now been forbidden to change certain programs, e.g. upgrade, uninstall, change, etc. Not all, but just a few. It keeps saying that I do not have the permission level and I should talk to the system administrator. The thing is, my account is already the administrator. Also this has never happened before. I know that during my attempt to get rid of some virus and spyware from my computer I might have changed some settings, but I really can't remember what I did that might have upset the system. If anyone out there can help me, I'd really really appreciate! THANKS!!!
These short days that are long...
Without so much as blinking my eyes, it has been a bit more than 2 months since I came back from Sydney. I also discovered that it's increasingly difficult to put a perspective on the length of the duration which I've been here. It definitely has been a significant amount of time given that I'm starting to get a little edgy like someone trying kick an addiction cold turkey. Already self-exiled myself to sleeping on the couch (which I think won't last much longer as the nights are getting hotter and hotter and the air-con sounds sweeter and sweeter), I really am not sure what's next. There's no telling when and what is happening to me on any given day.
These days that are getting me more and more confused. Days that feel so long with so much to do but when I look back, there's really not much that I can remember, something that happens when you feel that the days are really short. Like I'm blacking out everyday. It's a surreal feeling with a lot of reality. Feels like I live a conscious life while being unconscious, or the other way around.
Most days I can brush these feelings off with jokes and light stuff or work, some days I just implode. I'm also taking weekends off. It has been almost 3 weekends that I find myself naturally NOT working on the weekends. Something that hasn't happened since I came back last September. I think my mind and body is finally taking charge over my stubbornness in certain area.
I suspect that the major reason of my recent weird behaviour other than I'm been without the Sydney oxygen for 2 months is that because things are really moving very very fast around me. I'm trying my best to keep my head above water. The best I've achieved so far is to have it right at my head and if I stop clearing it, it will soon be above again. Maybe that's why I just naturally stopped working so much on the weekends because I wanna catch a breath at any cost.
I know I can do it, it's mostly just temporary. I'm confident I'll come out high and dry in the end. However, like everyone in the midst of it, we all whine and bitch about it, making a big deal out of it when it's really just peas. For the moment, I find myself clinging to old ways more when I really should be moving forward. To have bigger, greater, grander vision. To stand taller, higher, stronger. To do better, and be better. This, is just a bottleneck now.
Alright, enough of my whining and bitching about nothing. Now that it's off my chest a bit, it'll get me going for another week or so. For now I'm happy. For now I'm grateful to all the people around me and I'm thankful of all the help I get. I'm doing something I like, making money out of it, I love my family and I'm happy :D))
On another note, it has been a bit more than a week since Stella left for Europe. I got an email from her last night and I'm over the moon happy to hear from her. How I miss her and her mad mad sanity. Maybe that's why I'm growing increasingly insane...(yes blame it on those traveling in Europe is always the best idea hehe :P)
Went and did some shopping few days ago. Went again yesterday with my sister who ended up spending mad at Mexx. She wore the "Celina" necklace I gave her as her 21st present for the first time. She looked great with it and I suspect part of the reason why she bought so many outfits is due to the necklace. Everything seems to look better with it on :)
My father, who has been the hot and controversial topic around the house lately, has finally agreed to come back and work in the south from June on. I honestly hope he keeps his promise this time. Toleration can only be extended so much. Certain memories and knowledge can only be suppressed for so long.
Oh, been sick for like the hundred millionth time this week. Coughing bad and all. Fever ran for 4 days last weekend. It is really gonna take a while for my body to be in tune with this place. Or is the sign of my body rejecting this place telling me something? Wow, ok, I better stop before I sound more like Carrie Bradshaw... Which will be SCARY!!!
Cel at work has so far seen one local TV actor, Jacky Chan, and Zhang Ai Jia. Quite exciting. I'm making it mandatory for her to bring her camera to work from now on... heh... :)
These days that are getting me more and more confused. Days that feel so long with so much to do but when I look back, there's really not much that I can remember, something that happens when you feel that the days are really short. Like I'm blacking out everyday. It's a surreal feeling with a lot of reality. Feels like I live a conscious life while being unconscious, or the other way around.
Most days I can brush these feelings off with jokes and light stuff or work, some days I just implode. I'm also taking weekends off. It has been almost 3 weekends that I find myself naturally NOT working on the weekends. Something that hasn't happened since I came back last September. I think my mind and body is finally taking charge over my stubbornness in certain area.
I suspect that the major reason of my recent weird behaviour other than I'm been without the Sydney oxygen for 2 months is that because things are really moving very very fast around me. I'm trying my best to keep my head above water. The best I've achieved so far is to have it right at my head and if I stop clearing it, it will soon be above again. Maybe that's why I just naturally stopped working so much on the weekends because I wanna catch a breath at any cost.
I know I can do it, it's mostly just temporary. I'm confident I'll come out high and dry in the end. However, like everyone in the midst of it, we all whine and bitch about it, making a big deal out of it when it's really just peas. For the moment, I find myself clinging to old ways more when I really should be moving forward. To have bigger, greater, grander vision. To stand taller, higher, stronger. To do better, and be better. This, is just a bottleneck now.
Alright, enough of my whining and bitching about nothing. Now that it's off my chest a bit, it'll get me going for another week or so. For now I'm happy. For now I'm grateful to all the people around me and I'm thankful of all the help I get. I'm doing something I like, making money out of it, I love my family and I'm happy :D))
On another note, it has been a bit more than a week since Stella left for Europe. I got an email from her last night and I'm over the moon happy to hear from her. How I miss her and her mad mad sanity. Maybe that's why I'm growing increasingly insane...(yes blame it on those traveling in Europe is always the best idea hehe :P)
Went and did some shopping few days ago. Went again yesterday with my sister who ended up spending mad at Mexx. She wore the "Celina" necklace I gave her as her 21st present for the first time. She looked great with it and I suspect part of the reason why she bought so many outfits is due to the necklace. Everything seems to look better with it on :)
My father, who has been the hot and controversial topic around the house lately, has finally agreed to come back and work in the south from June on. I honestly hope he keeps his promise this time. Toleration can only be extended so much. Certain memories and knowledge can only be suppressed for so long.
Oh, been sick for like the hundred millionth time this week. Coughing bad and all. Fever ran for 4 days last weekend. It is really gonna take a while for my body to be in tune with this place. Or is the sign of my body rejecting this place telling me something? Wow, ok, I better stop before I sound more like Carrie Bradshaw... Which will be SCARY!!!
Cel at work has so far seen one local TV actor, Jacky Chan, and Zhang Ai Jia. Quite exciting. I'm making it mandatory for her to bring her camera to work from now on... heh... :)
Friday, April 08, 2005
Ben & Jerry...
Discovering them is one of the delights in life, I believe. Never have I tasted ice cream this good. It's ecstatic. An exhilirating experience one would never think you can get from eating chocolate fudge brownie ice cream... ok... yes... but Ben & Jerry is above and beyond that!!!
After slacking for several weeks (agonising I hope for my dear readers/friends coz I really don't know why else should I keep writing if no one misses my blabbing on and on here...)
So during my absence here, life went on like the sun coming up everyday. I missed many great parties on Sydney but also had a few nice gatherings with my old friends here in HK. Even went to visit Carol in China which reminds me I have still yet to upload the photos we took for her.
Stella left for Europe on the last day of March. She's going for a month and I hope she's gonna meet some hot guys over there while soaking up everything Europe has to offer. But I'm pretty sure Europe alone is a great pleasure already and the hot guys will just be garnish :P
After slacking for several weeks (agonising I hope for my dear readers/friends coz I really don't know why else should I keep writing if no one misses my blabbing on and on here...)
So during my absence here, life went on like the sun coming up everyday. I missed many great parties on Sydney but also had a few nice gatherings with my old friends here in HK. Even went to visit Carol in China which reminds me I have still yet to upload the photos we took for her.
Stella left for Europe on the last day of March. She's going for a month and I hope she's gonna meet some hot guys over there while soaking up everything Europe has to offer. But I'm pretty sure Europe alone is a great pleasure already and the hot guys will just be garnish :P
Friday, March 04, 2005
A picture says more than words...
This is what I was gonna give cel for her 21st... after many hiccups... finally...
Then... well these are two pictures of the male model I picked to be the winner from the beginning of Manhunt (The US show that picks who gets a $100,000 modelling contract with IMG. This is the male version of the female's "America's Next Top Model Contest"). I picked him from the beginning and he did actually win! HAHAHA
Then... well these are two pictures of the male model I picked to be the winner from the beginning of Manhunt (The US show that picks who gets a $100,000 modelling contract with IMG. This is the male version of the female's "America's Next Top Model Contest"). I picked him from the beginning and he did actually win! HAHAHA
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Back fom family dinner... as always...
Just came back from dinner thrown by Auntine Emily and her husband supposedly to celebrate the end of their bakery. Oh well, as usual, too much food and not enough drink...
Can those of you who have a blog to write something there? heheheh :D You see, I don't have any fun things to do on the weekend so I rely on your blog for some comedic relieve hehehehe
Anyway, heaps of work to do tomorrow or so.W
Cel, my darling sis, COME BACK QUICK!!!
Can those of you who have a blog to write something there? heheheh :D You see, I don't have any fun things to do on the weekend so I rely on your blog for some comedic relieve hehehehe
Anyway, heaps of work to do tomorrow or so.W
Cel, my darling sis, COME BACK QUICK!!!
Saturday, February 26, 2005
ARGH!!!
it's only been 6 hours and i'm nearing the end of my wits...
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't ppl just go to bed and sleep???
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can't ppl just go to bed and sleep???
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH!!!!!! Secretly hoping to be able to scream at the top of my lungs and punch the sand bag with the full force of my weight (should be quite amazing!) or bat my best and hit a homerun all the way to pluto or shoot a shot gun so straign the bullets go straight through to the next galaxy and collapse it...
Unlike my sister who shows her emotions on her face, I tend keep them underwraps. I know... it's not doing me any good and I don't need a shrink to tell me that...
Cel come back soon, I need you here (even though maybe after 2 weeks I'd wanna choke you to your death!!!) I can't deal with this on my own.
Anyway I'm spending the evening alone with my dad. Since when does having a glass of wine at the end of the night to chill considers turning into an alcoholic? I know it's not about the alcohol. We can all handle that.
On one very rare occasion, George W. Bush was right about one thing when he said he wasn't going to comment on the gay marriage issue. He said he's not gonna comment on the gay marriage issue because he's a sinner himself and he's really in no place to comment on other people's. Well, I know at least drinking to chill wasn't a biblical sin.
It's baseball bat... all I feel is baseball bat... and I can feel that it's progressing to auto machine guns very quickly... bypassing the shotguns... Only one person in this world know what I'm talking about... so you better take this as a 000/911/999 call!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know... I know... nothing much I can do... I just wanna write and express and release...
Unlike my sister who shows her emotions on her face, I tend keep them underwraps. I know... it's not doing me any good and I don't need a shrink to tell me that...
Cel come back soon, I need you here (even though maybe after 2 weeks I'd wanna choke you to your death!!!) I can't deal with this on my own.
Anyway I'm spending the evening alone with my dad. Since when does having a glass of wine at the end of the night to chill considers turning into an alcoholic? I know it's not about the alcohol. We can all handle that.
On one very rare occasion, George W. Bush was right about one thing when he said he wasn't going to comment on the gay marriage issue. He said he's not gonna comment on the gay marriage issue because he's a sinner himself and he's really in no place to comment on other people's. Well, I know at least drinking to chill wasn't a biblical sin.
It's baseball bat... all I feel is baseball bat... and I can feel that it's progressing to auto machine guns very quickly... bypassing the shotguns... Only one person in this world know what I'm talking about... so you better take this as a 000/911/999 call!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know... I know... nothing much I can do... I just wanna write and express and release...
Friday, February 25, 2005
Finally I have money to use!!!
Just another regular Thursday and I'm chilling home alone!!!
I have finally sorted out some of the Paypal problems I've been having and able to withdraw money from my account!!! It's quite a relieve since it's really frustrating seeing all the money in the account and can't use any of it! I must admit I did a little shopping today after restocking from my suppliers. But hey, it's not a splurge just getting around doing regular stuff... so not exactly an extravegance or something!!! Feeling much better now and not as stressed.
My sister was right, I stressed and complained when I don't have work and I stressed and complained when I have work... hahaha... I guess sometimes I can be quite whiny and all :P
After a whole day of walking around, I'm pretty tired already. Probably gonna go to bed early. I bought color contacts today, will try them when I have a party to go to!!! hehehe!!!
Bought 2 CDs today. Leehom and Tension. I'm happy :D Very happy :D))
Jackson: if you see this blog, I have been trying to call you for a few days now, keep getting no answers. Not sure if it's too late or what. I also found out that my network seems to be messing up a lot with the sms so I hope you get the sms I sent! Anyway will keep trying tomorrow or whatever, if you read this blog before I successfully contacted you, let me know! Write a comment or something ok! Thanks!
Cel: I love you darling, come back soon and so I can see you work your ass off and laugh! haha!!!
Stella: You look GREAT in pink! Wear it more! Your pashminas are also on their way :)
I have finally sorted out some of the Paypal problems I've been having and able to withdraw money from my account!!! It's quite a relieve since it's really frustrating seeing all the money in the account and can't use any of it! I must admit I did a little shopping today after restocking from my suppliers. But hey, it's not a splurge just getting around doing regular stuff... so not exactly an extravegance or something!!! Feeling much better now and not as stressed.
My sister was right, I stressed and complained when I don't have work and I stressed and complained when I have work... hahaha... I guess sometimes I can be quite whiny and all :P
After a whole day of walking around, I'm pretty tired already. Probably gonna go to bed early. I bought color contacts today, will try them when I have a party to go to!!! hehehe!!!
Bought 2 CDs today. Leehom and Tension. I'm happy :D Very happy :D))
Jackson: if you see this blog, I have been trying to call you for a few days now, keep getting no answers. Not sure if it's too late or what. I also found out that my network seems to be messing up a lot with the sms so I hope you get the sms I sent! Anyway will keep trying tomorrow or whatever, if you read this blog before I successfully contacted you, let me know! Write a comment or something ok! Thanks!
Cel: I love you darling, come back soon and so I can see you work your ass off and laugh! haha!!!
Stella: You look GREAT in pink! Wear it more! Your pashminas are also on their way :)
Monday, February 21, 2005
Another freezing day...
A very cold day today... It's been cold for the past few days in fact, The misty, chilly kinda weather that no matter how many layers of clothing you put on yourself it's useless. Not that I'm complaining too much, I love the cold and am enjoying it... while not feeling my toes...
Only a few months into this blog and I'm already writing this on a weekly/biweekly basis. I really seriously think I need to stop thinking about writing stuff and actually do some writing... then again, how many times have I said that already? hahahahaha
I have been working very hard on my little business. So hard that sometimes I don't want to stop, not because I have a dying urge to do everything I can/can't, but because if I stop and look back and forward and get perspective, I am afraid that I will be defeated by the enormous amount of work that needs to be done that I'll lose the drive and the courage to keep moving forward. My work day isn't really that tough, in fact there are a lot of time where I can just bluff around even while I'm working. So I really don't know what I'm complaining about. I think it has more to do with the constant stress of wanting to achieve great performance that is really draining me. After all, my entire survival seems to depend on it. I'm really working very hard to get out of this initial stage and start getting some return... so at least there is one aspect of my life that don't look so sad...
Only a few months into this blog and I'm already writing this on a weekly/biweekly basis. I really seriously think I need to stop thinking about writing stuff and actually do some writing... then again, how many times have I said that already? hahahahaha
I have been working very hard on my little business. So hard that sometimes I don't want to stop, not because I have a dying urge to do everything I can/can't, but because if I stop and look back and forward and get perspective, I am afraid that I will be defeated by the enormous amount of work that needs to be done that I'll lose the drive and the courage to keep moving forward. My work day isn't really that tough, in fact there are a lot of time where I can just bluff around even while I'm working. So I really don't know what I'm complaining about. I think it has more to do with the constant stress of wanting to achieve great performance that is really draining me. After all, my entire survival seems to depend on it. I'm really working very hard to get out of this initial stage and start getting some return... so at least there is one aspect of my life that don't look so sad...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Skype...
Just so if any of you are interested in talking IDD or local calls for free with clearer than calling card quality... here's the software to download...
http://www.skype.com/
I have to take down my username coz too many strangers keep adding me... email me if you want to add me!!! (Only people I know Pls!!!)
http://www.skype.com/
I have to take down my username coz too many strangers keep adding me... email me if you want to add me!!! (Only people I know Pls!!!)
First Day of Chinese New Year
First of all, happy Chinese New Year to everyone who's... well... Chinese? hahahaha
It was a working day for me and I did get many things done so I'm happy about that. Being home alone and all, I'm actually not missing too much either. I had dinner with my uncle Stephen and his family and their friends. It was a great night. Just good friends gathered around having nice food (well we did gathered as well just two nights before for the end of year dinner!). I also collect a few red pockets "lai si" as well!!! Which was super good heheheheh!!!
The highlight of the night though has to be the skype telephone call I have with Stella and Sam. It was quite exciting for me (I also made some sales for my pashmina!!! heheheh :P)!!! I've always used the program to just talk to my relatives but never friends. Now I hope more people will install the program so we can have mad conference calls!
I especially missed my sister the most. She has a post dedicated to me right after I left Sydney and I was really sad when I read it coz I really missed the time we have together in our little apartment just being stupid and annoyed the shit out of each other. I know i'll probably be seeing her in about a month's time for a while but still, it's not the same. I'm gonna work hard so that I can move out to be on my own and we can share an apartment here as well!!!
Met up with Carol last night, she was on her way to another party. She left for Sydney today and will be spending 4 days in my place with my sister. It's good to catch up with old friends. Sometimes you just donno what you miss when you see each other all the time or when the other's always availble. I think to actually appreciate a person even when they are there is when we all grow mature.
Ok enough senimental talk. It's the first day of Chinese New Year. I hope every one is going to have a super good time this year. No more bad things will happen and we all live happily and peacifully!!! It's about time when people get a break.
It's just about god damn time!!!
It was a working day for me and I did get many things done so I'm happy about that. Being home alone and all, I'm actually not missing too much either. I had dinner with my uncle Stephen and his family and their friends. It was a great night. Just good friends gathered around having nice food (well we did gathered as well just two nights before for the end of year dinner!). I also collect a few red pockets "lai si" as well!!! Which was super good heheheheh!!!
The highlight of the night though has to be the skype telephone call I have with Stella and Sam. It was quite exciting for me (I also made some sales for my pashmina!!! heheheh :P)!!! I've always used the program to just talk to my relatives but never friends. Now I hope more people will install the program so we can have mad conference calls!
I especially missed my sister the most. She has a post dedicated to me right after I left Sydney and I was really sad when I read it coz I really missed the time we have together in our little apartment just being stupid and annoyed the shit out of each other. I know i'll probably be seeing her in about a month's time for a while but still, it's not the same. I'm gonna work hard so that I can move out to be on my own and we can share an apartment here as well!!!
Met up with Carol last night, she was on her way to another party. She left for Sydney today and will be spending 4 days in my place with my sister. It's good to catch up with old friends. Sometimes you just donno what you miss when you see each other all the time or when the other's always availble. I think to actually appreciate a person even when they are there is when we all grow mature.
Ok enough senimental talk. It's the first day of Chinese New Year. I hope every one is going to have a super good time this year. No more bad things will happen and we all live happily and peacifully!!! It's about time when people get a break.
It's just about god damn time!!!
Monday, February 07, 2005
Photos from Wedding
Exchanging Rings
Cutting Cake
Sis, Karen and Me
Carrie, Sis, Divini and Karen
Me and Sis
Antony, David, Bobby, Sandra and Ah Sing
The newly wed
Ming Ming and one of the flower girls
Me and Angel
Andy, Sis and Karen
Me and Jackson
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Back to reality...
My second attempt to write... I, like an idiot that I am, closed the window without saving anything...
So I was saying, time truly flies when one is having a great time and being lazy. There's so much that happened during my trip that I want to share yet here I am, few days since I came back before I go about writing anything down.
First of all, Hen's night was a big success. We got the then bride-to-be so trashed we almost got into trouble. Too much San Gria and Champagne plus a stripper proved to be too much for her to handle. We tried tapas, strippers, gate crashing, loft and cargo and the mix proves to be the best remedy to end one's single life. Although it made the pre-wedding meeting the next day unbearable, there was no regret!
Wedding day!!! An emotional and adrenaline charged occasion that was maxed up by nervousness, excitement, lack of sleep, long travel, extreme weathers, running make ups, sore feet, lots of walking under scorching sun, non stop schedule, lots of balloons and not enough alcohol and food. We all went home like zombies having accomplished one monstrously happy task. Congratulations to Bobby and Sandra on embarking a life together and congratulations to all the sisters and brothers who gave their sweat and blood to make sure it ran as smoothly as possible. Without whom this would have been quite a disaster!
I spent the next day (a perfect, sunny Australia Day) chilling and relaxing and just being a total bum. I went to the beach in the morning and had fish and chips (gosh I was longing for that!) and the the rest of the day eating nachos that was specially created by Stella (simply amazing!) and the 4 of us just watched Sex and the City on DVD. It couldn't have been a more perfect day!
The next few days were simply more parties and less and less sleep. Friday night was dinner in San Souci (a place call Big John that is awesome and cheap) with the whole gang from the wedding. We then went to K and I didn't get to bed until 6:30am the next day.
Saturday night was dinner at Totoya and followed by, well what else could it have been but K? The evening would just not be complete without it! I have to mention that I was super duperly touched when Ricky called me on Friday to ask if I wanna get together and have dinner that night. I almost wanted to cancel on the gang when he called! We had such a blast at K then we finished the night with talking till 9am in the morning. I'm just happy and grateful that after all that has happened and being that situation, I discovered that I have made some true great friends.
So after just about 4 hours of sleep me and sis embarked on our journey to Newcastle to see Angela. She was working that day so we had to go to SD to see her. Our of being polite we dropped by to say hi to Betty. May I just say that that woman is dillusional and mental as hell. She's downright ridiculous and rude and fake that you wonder why she wouldn think others won't know that about her. But it was great seeing Stephen again. He's a true good bloke. We then went to Angela's house to see her family while she was at work. This great family is awesome and delightful to be with. What with all the food and drink and talk, one can just fall right in love with them. Yes, you can feel the love just being in the house!
By Monday afternoon I knew I had to postpone my trip and it's as if god himself was helping me, I had totally no problem pushing my departure a day late! Cleaned the house and cooked for sis, Stella, Jackson and Karen on my last night in Sydney. Then Ricky and Sam dropped by and we all just watched some great silly movies.
During the evening there were some heated conversation exchanged between sis and that bastardly scumbag asshole who refuses to pay and who I think even hell itself would not want such a low-life slimeball of a fucker who likes fucking himself and eating his own cum to boost his hyper inflated moudy brainless ego.
But the night was otherwise a great one and I had a great great time with freinds and Harold and Kumar and then talked to Karen till 5 in the morning. It was a great way to end my Sydney trip.
it was a sad day the day I left. I really really didn't want to leave but had to. I think the city misses me and want me to stay too. My flight was delayed for 2 hours. The first hour due to mechanical problem and the second due to weather condition. There was thunder and lightning and mad rain. The smouldering shower in Hong Kong wasn't the best welcome back feeling and somehow I think I wished that it wasn't good so it gave me more reason to work hard to go back to Sydney...
To recap:
Number of people I sent home who were trashed/drunk/passed out/unconcious/puking: 5
Number of night I was trashed/drunk/passed out/unconcious/puking: 0 (tragic)
Number of times I've been to the beach: 0 (tragic)
Number of times I had fish and chips: 1 (tragic)
Number of times I had pie and dogs at Harry's: 3 (hmmm yumm....)
Number of months before I get to be in Sydney again: 4 (miserable)
Winne is here with her husband. They've spent last night here and will spend tonight here as well. We didn't do much other than catching up and chilling at home. Her mom passed away the week I was in Sydney. She was in London and didn't get the news until she returned 2 days later. It's amazing how so much can be discovered and exposed when one's gone, but I suppose that's for another post another time.
In the end, I learned not to whine (too much anyway) what with all the great friends I discovered I have I think I'll be good fo the next few months!
So I was saying, time truly flies when one is having a great time and being lazy. There's so much that happened during my trip that I want to share yet here I am, few days since I came back before I go about writing anything down.
First of all, Hen's night was a big success. We got the then bride-to-be so trashed we almost got into trouble. Too much San Gria and Champagne plus a stripper proved to be too much for her to handle. We tried tapas, strippers, gate crashing, loft and cargo and the mix proves to be the best remedy to end one's single life. Although it made the pre-wedding meeting the next day unbearable, there was no regret!
Wedding day!!! An emotional and adrenaline charged occasion that was maxed up by nervousness, excitement, lack of sleep, long travel, extreme weathers, running make ups, sore feet, lots of walking under scorching sun, non stop schedule, lots of balloons and not enough alcohol and food. We all went home like zombies having accomplished one monstrously happy task. Congratulations to Bobby and Sandra on embarking a life together and congratulations to all the sisters and brothers who gave their sweat and blood to make sure it ran as smoothly as possible. Without whom this would have been quite a disaster!
I spent the next day (a perfect, sunny Australia Day) chilling and relaxing and just being a total bum. I went to the beach in the morning and had fish and chips (gosh I was longing for that!) and the the rest of the day eating nachos that was specially created by Stella (simply amazing!) and the 4 of us just watched Sex and the City on DVD. It couldn't have been a more perfect day!
The next few days were simply more parties and less and less sleep. Friday night was dinner in San Souci (a place call Big John that is awesome and cheap) with the whole gang from the wedding. We then went to K and I didn't get to bed until 6:30am the next day.
Saturday night was dinner at Totoya and followed by, well what else could it have been but K? The evening would just not be complete without it! I have to mention that I was super duperly touched when Ricky called me on Friday to ask if I wanna get together and have dinner that night. I almost wanted to cancel on the gang when he called! We had such a blast at K then we finished the night with talking till 9am in the morning. I'm just happy and grateful that after all that has happened and being that situation, I discovered that I have made some true great friends.
So after just about 4 hours of sleep me and sis embarked on our journey to Newcastle to see Angela. She was working that day so we had to go to SD to see her. Our of being polite we dropped by to say hi to Betty. May I just say that that woman is dillusional and mental as hell. She's downright ridiculous and rude and fake that you wonder why she wouldn think others won't know that about her. But it was great seeing Stephen again. He's a true good bloke. We then went to Angela's house to see her family while she was at work. This great family is awesome and delightful to be with. What with all the food and drink and talk, one can just fall right in love with them. Yes, you can feel the love just being in the house!
By Monday afternoon I knew I had to postpone my trip and it's as if god himself was helping me, I had totally no problem pushing my departure a day late! Cleaned the house and cooked for sis, Stella, Jackson and Karen on my last night in Sydney. Then Ricky and Sam dropped by and we all just watched some great silly movies.
During the evening there were some heated conversation exchanged between sis and that bastardly scumbag asshole who refuses to pay and who I think even hell itself would not want such a low-life slimeball of a fucker who likes fucking himself and eating his own cum to boost his hyper inflated moudy brainless ego.
But the night was otherwise a great one and I had a great great time with freinds and Harold and Kumar and then talked to Karen till 5 in the morning. It was a great way to end my Sydney trip.
it was a sad day the day I left. I really really didn't want to leave but had to. I think the city misses me and want me to stay too. My flight was delayed for 2 hours. The first hour due to mechanical problem and the second due to weather condition. There was thunder and lightning and mad rain. The smouldering shower in Hong Kong wasn't the best welcome back feeling and somehow I think I wished that it wasn't good so it gave me more reason to work hard to go back to Sydney...
To recap:
Number of people I sent home who were trashed/drunk/passed out/unconcious/puking: 5
Number of night I was trashed/drunk/passed out/unconcious/puking: 0 (tragic)
Number of times I've been to the beach: 0 (tragic)
Number of times I had fish and chips: 1 (tragic)
Number of times I had pie and dogs at Harry's: 3 (hmmm yumm....)
Number of months before I get to be in Sydney again: 4 (miserable)
Winne is here with her husband. They've spent last night here and will spend tonight here as well. We didn't do much other than catching up and chilling at home. Her mom passed away the week I was in Sydney. She was in London and didn't get the news until she returned 2 days later. It's amazing how so much can be discovered and exposed when one's gone, but I suppose that's for another post another time.
In the end, I learned not to whine (too much anyway) what with all the great friends I discovered I have I think I'll be good fo the next few months!
Thursday, January 20, 2005
On the eve of Sydney...
Gee I've been pretty lazy with this!!! A whole 9 days without writing one thing!!!
Leaving for Sydney tomorrow morning, flight is at 0755... Quite a killer really. And apparently I'm flying A333 with no PTV. I'm hoping hard that it's gonna be a 747 with PTV!!!
Been coughing bad these few days, other than that didn't really feel sick much. Then mom made me see a doctor and after taking all the medication (I'm not even gonna go into details what the doc said to scare me!) I feel sicker than ever! Those medicine has slowed me down!!! Now I do look sick!
Anyway, I'm glad all the woes with the ties are over now. I hope everyone's gonna have a happy trip!
Leaving for Sydney tomorrow morning, flight is at 0755... Quite a killer really. And apparently I'm flying A333 with no PTV. I'm hoping hard that it's gonna be a 747 with PTV!!!
Been coughing bad these few days, other than that didn't really feel sick much. Then mom made me see a doctor and after taking all the medication (I'm not even gonna go into details what the doc said to scare me!) I feel sicker than ever! Those medicine has slowed me down!!! Now I do look sick!
Anyway, I'm glad all the woes with the ties are over now. I hope everyone's gonna have a happy trip!
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Happy Birthday Danny!!!
Another Birthday Celebration!!!
I know January is a very popular month, nine months prior to this month it's... April... the festive Easter mood? I really don't know, and don't quite want to think about it...
Anyway after some chaotic organisation by John (Thanks!!!) We were finally able to sit down at this nice Thai restaurant and eat. The meal finished with a yummy Tiramisu cake (Thanks Cherry!!!). And we have ourselves two very happy birthday people!
The photos for some reason I couldn't upload... If you want them, just ask me!
I know January is a very popular month, nine months prior to this month it's... April... the festive Easter mood? I really don't know, and don't quite want to think about it...
Anyway after some chaotic organisation by John (Thanks!!!) We were finally able to sit down at this nice Thai restaurant and eat. The meal finished with a yummy Tiramisu cake (Thanks Cherry!!!). And we have ourselves two very happy birthday people!
The photos for some reason I couldn't upload... If you want them, just ask me!
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
boiling blood...
sometimes one wonders if the nastiness in one's character is really brought on by environment or if it's already certain something in the character that directs how one reacts...
at any given time or day there's no predicting what someone might do... i saw two very hurt ppl tonight attemping to talk... whose kidding who? those who are brave enough to stand up and say they may not the the total victim and try to take some responsibility gets stymy to ground zero. is playing victim really the better of two evils? it's not a game and no one wins but a lot of people lost. maybe our society is really full of walking zombies with limbs they can't lift while trying to find their life again. whoever run slower gets buffy. (with no disrespect to the show as i must admit secretly that i have watched many a slayer fest...)
i want to keep my respect for certain people, and keep my cool... but in this situation... i can't help but say, what a loser, low life fucker that some people can turn out to be when they are stung. we are all victims of our own actions... why shove it in someone else's face? the donations should have come from within us...
at any given time or day there's no predicting what someone might do... i saw two very hurt ppl tonight attemping to talk... whose kidding who? those who are brave enough to stand up and say they may not the the total victim and try to take some responsibility gets stymy to ground zero. is playing victim really the better of two evils? it's not a game and no one wins but a lot of people lost. maybe our society is really full of walking zombies with limbs they can't lift while trying to find their life again. whoever run slower gets buffy. (with no disrespect to the show as i must admit secretly that i have watched many a slayer fest...)
i want to keep my respect for certain people, and keep my cool... but in this situation... i can't help but say, what a loser, low life fucker that some people can turn out to be when they are stung. we are all victims of our own actions... why shove it in someone else's face? the donations should have come from within us...
My Birthday Dinner...
A lovely pic of the family...
My flaming love... The everlasting classic... Baked Alaska!!!
Had a lovely evening with dinner in Aberdeen Boat Club. Haven't been there for ages and misses this little sweet. Aside from that, well life is life, sometimes it's just the appreciation of having a full stomach and ever more if it's a delicious one.
Many other things hang over my head like a cloudy day all by itself concentrated on my small area... it's really hard to shake off no matter how hard you try.
Disappointment really is much much worse than pure hatre.
All in all I had a good day. Wish there are more good days to come in the year. For everyone.
Monday, January 10, 2005
my day...
hehhe it's my birthday today!!!
Happy Birthday to ME!!!
Nothing special but had a lot of mutton last night and it was great!!! Going to ABC for dinner tonight!
Picking up paces on the starting up again thingy. Getting quicker and better these days, practice makes perfects!
Will be back to write more...
Happy Birthday to ME!!!
Nothing special but had a lot of mutton last night and it was great!!! Going to ABC for dinner tonight!
Picking up paces on the starting up again thingy. Getting quicker and better these days, practice makes perfects!
Will be back to write more...
Friday, January 07, 2005
Thursday, January 06, 2005
the day after yesterday...
the sun is out today. although the weather is still cold, the sun is a bit reassuring that the world is not gonna crumble. or will it? apparently saudi arabia snowed around christmas time. the very first in the history of that place. snowing in the sun scorching middle east.
by the way everyone, i have changed my mobile number in hong kong, it's not 9743 1398 (852 country code). mom told me the old number was jinxing me too much! well at this point i will believe in anything! just anything!
by the way everyone, i have changed my mobile number in hong kong, it's not 9743 1398 (852 country code). mom told me the old number was jinxing me too much! well at this point i will believe in anything! just anything!
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
talk about a bad day...
if there are indeed bad karma, then today has to be one of those shiny samples. this day, is bad on so many levels. what's next? a year full of days like this? or that it could get worse before even being alive alone is better already? i really really dont want to jinx the year but man... it damn well better get much much much better after such a shitty start!!!!!!!!!
what the fuck man!!!
my new tie site has been shut down again. what kinda shit is this really? feel like a deflated balloon. honestly, i really don't think i deserve it. and although there's no direct relationship, i will happily traced the blame back to hoffrey whom had he not mugged around with the first site and got us deregistered in the first place then i won't be having his problem today. fucking irresponsible bastard who is still haunting me like a sorry ghost with a stinging tail with a shadow lurking just around the corner. i wish he'd go to hell for there are no worse place that is better suited for his type of faggoty big fat drama queen asshole. fuck him fuck hum fuck him! fuck fuck fuck! he should go fuck himself! stupid fish fucker!
funny though, ihad the best sleep for while last night after finding out what happened. i think i was very conciously and subconciously making myself sleep. that was the only thing that could relieve me from the flood of feelings that i saw coming my way which i didnt want to deal with yet. (it took me and cel a whole minute to figure out which word to use in this case, relief or relieve, geez my english is getting bad, don't be surprised be i start not making sense... oh i already dont even with correct grammar... hmm...)
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
funny though, ihad the best sleep for while last night after finding out what happened. i think i was very conciously and subconciously making myself sleep. that was the only thing that could relieve me from the flood of feelings that i saw coming my way which i didnt want to deal with yet. (it took me and cel a whole minute to figure out which word to use in this case, relief or relieve, geez my english is getting bad, don't be surprised be i start not making sense... oh i already dont even with correct grammar... hmm...)
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
another new beginning...still the same old me...
entering almost the end of the 4th day of the new year and things are... well... not much different. it's hard to shake off what was supposed to be last year's and defining what is this year's. janurary is just another month that comes after december instead of a whole new beginning in itself. decidedly very different from what i felt in previous years. secretly i think i'm just dreading the forward motion of time... then again going backward really isn't an option...
there were so much i had wanted to write a few days ago when i was deprived access to my own blog due to stupid connection problem up north. i could read it in chinese alright with google translation, but nothing much else i could have done.
back home, i've been wanting to write what i wanted to write for a few days and i couldn't squeeze one word out. odd. maybe things are just like that. when you don't have it you want it. when you have it you don't really think much about it or keep the effort up. such is human nature.
read stella and cel's blog and they both did some reflections of their own. i didn't. first, maybe it's just not my thing; second, i really don't want to have to recap what happened. usually when you do reflections, what comes to mind are things that are major, important, or have dragged on for a while to make itself of enough significance for one to remember. all of which i do not want to remember, mention, or think about. i fled the scene as quickly as i could and i don't ever want to go back to.
cel just got me distracted talking about phones and stuff and other silly stuff and now i'm in a very happy mood and unable to continue what i was going to write... damn i miss her when she's NOT around me hahahahahahahahah
by the way ppl, i am looking at 2 phones at the moment that i want to change. one is nokia 7270 and the other one is nokia 7280 (which is really sleek and stylish!!!) but i think i will end up going for 7270 since i have wanted a flip phone for a very long time and i really wan a practical phone. after that i will be looking at buying a O2 xda IIs pda hahahahahahahhaha. it's a bit pricey for me though...
hmm new year resolutions... just keep my head low and work and enjoy life in the mean time i guess. i think that's the most solid way of going through one's life. yeah... that's like... my excuse for not having an actual new year resolution that i can chuck at the end of this year!!! hahahaha!!!
there were so much i had wanted to write a few days ago when i was deprived access to my own blog due to stupid connection problem up north. i could read it in chinese alright with google translation, but nothing much else i could have done.
back home, i've been wanting to write what i wanted to write for a few days and i couldn't squeeze one word out. odd. maybe things are just like that. when you don't have it you want it. when you have it you don't really think much about it or keep the effort up. such is human nature.
read stella and cel's blog and they both did some reflections of their own. i didn't. first, maybe it's just not my thing; second, i really don't want to have to recap what happened. usually when you do reflections, what comes to mind are things that are major, important, or have dragged on for a while to make itself of enough significance for one to remember. all of which i do not want to remember, mention, or think about. i fled the scene as quickly as i could and i don't ever want to go back to.
cel just got me distracted talking about phones and stuff and other silly stuff and now i'm in a very happy mood and unable to continue what i was going to write... damn i miss her when she's NOT around me hahahahahahahahah
by the way ppl, i am looking at 2 phones at the moment that i want to change. one is nokia 7270 and the other one is nokia 7280 (which is really sleek and stylish!!!) but i think i will end up going for 7270 since i have wanted a flip phone for a very long time and i really wan a practical phone. after that i will be looking at buying a O2 xda IIs pda hahahahahahahhaha. it's a bit pricey for me though...
hmm new year resolutions... just keep my head low and work and enjoy life in the mean time i guess. i think that's the most solid way of going through one's life. yeah... that's like... my excuse for not having an actual new year resolution that i can chuck at the end of this year!!! hahahaha!!!
oh well everyone, have a good one this year!!!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
*WARNING* sugar-rich site... full of sweet, melty cel-goodness! (Cel)